I'm finally awake.
Its a very exciting time right now. It feels like the universe and I are finally pulling together and in the right direction. I'm falling in love again with this life & striving to make it better each and every day. As nauseating positive as that may sound, I've decided to go with it, haha.

I'm surrounding myself around people who are good for me, I'm trying to nix negative thoughts or grumpy moods from others and DEFINITELY from myself. It's hard but worth it. I'm re-training my brain. I'm excited to be excited about myself again. Does that even make sense? ;) I'm excited to write more songs, better songs. I'm pumped to practice guitar until my fingers bleed. I'm ready to be more involved in every aspect of my career-whether its scheduling more meetings, calling radio stations, dragging myself out of my sweat pants and seeing more live shows. whatever. I'm up for the challenge of challenging myself to be out there more, to better the "product" of Rachel Williams, to listen and act, to sell more CDs, to book more shows, to exhaust myself in the best possible way by being productive.

Something has been stirred in me in the last couple weeks and I'm so thankful. It's a wake-up call. People always say "You get one life" and things along those lines, and it's so easy to take cliches like that and have it go in one ear and out the other. But it's really true. I think I've finally realized all the time I've wasted pursuing things that I thought would make me happy in the long-term, but they didn't. No friend, no boy, no trip, no new purchases blah blah blah is going to fully satisfy this heart, so...it's back to my first love. Ah yes, the first love...

Let's go back to the 5 year old girl who performed concerts standing on my Nana's fireplace singing The Judds. Or the 10 year old girl that made up song & dance routines to Mariah Carey in my basement. Or the 14 year old who fearlessly cold-called radio stations and fair promoters, asking if I could sing at their next event, and did. Or the 17 year old who burned my own CDs until 1am, the night before a show...printing off CD labels and stamping 'em on and cutting out photos she'd copied at Kinko's. Or the 19 year old girl who packed up everything she owned and piled it into the back of her Ford Escort and drove 550 miles to Nashville alone and never second-guessed or looked backed back.
I always liked her.

It's been a crazy couple of months and it has opened my eyes and my heart for the first time in a long time. Situations have come into my life unexpectedly that at the moment, left me feeling defeated, or used, or confused. But the second I realized that there are things out of my control, that I just have to let it go and give it to God, the easier everything became. You can control no one but yourself & how you react to what life thows you. I'm finally Ok with letting go of "friendships/relationships.." I never thought I'd be OK without. My new roommate is awesome. I'm becoming closer and growing relationships that before, I'd never really pursued. I'm getting focused. I'm playing guitar and writing songs/coming up with new ideas left and right. I'm cleaning my bedroom (that's a big one, haha!). I'm calling my family more. I'm spending time with my pups. I'm thanking God that my Dad and "soulmate" got through surgery just fine. I'm breathing deeper these days ;)

This is gonna be a fantastic year, fo shizzle.
Bring. It. <3

Thank you for indulging me in my rare blogging moment ;)

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