I was awoken by the purring of my cat this morning. He must be hungry and needed his usual morning attention. Basil, the dog is of course still sleeping duly under the duvet upstairs. While slowly sipping my coffee outside in the courtyard, my attention was drawn to the colorful flowers, my face felt a little warm from the sparse morning sunlight and suddenly my thoughts turned to home. So, I really needed to get the soupçon of thoughts in my blog so as to capture this moment of longing and wanting to be back home.

And now, Michael Bublé song is playing on youtube, it's called HOME  An appropriate background sound while Im trying to focus my thoughts and let my juices flow. I havent been much home the past years. In a way, I have lost precious moments watching everyone grows up especially my nephews and nieces. So many people that I know and love have past away or moved on. When you grow up in a longhouse, in some dense jungle of Borneo, you sort of related to everyone that lives in the commune. When they are middle aged, they need to be addressed as uncle or aunty and when they are older, granny or grandpa. I somehow, this morning felt this burgeoning desire to just see those old familiar faces again. Even just a glance. Strange I thought for someone who hasnt been very sentimental, especially not about home. Being away for a quarter of my adult life have turned me into someone who is ferociously independent and indifferent at times.

Anyway, this splurged of longing can be attributed to the fact that yesterday, I packed some little presents for my family in Borneo. Jati will be flying back at the end of the month and he'll bring my pack of love from Brussels with him. It makes me feeling rather forlorn somehow because I know a piece of me goes with it too. Oh silly me hehehehehe...

Basil is now yelling to his mummy for some attention. How sweet a dog can be, amazing isnt it? The unconditional love, the unabashed show of neediness and his cheerful nature have never failed to amuse me. Sometimes, I dont even know what would I do without my Basil ;)

With that, I shall get ready and prepare some breakfast. On my last note, I urge everyone out there to take a moment of your time to just sit still or stop whatever that you're doing, close your eyes and while breathing in and out slowly, try to think of your loved ones. The present or even the ones that you have parted with. Somehow, when you do this, u regain some positive energy from those precious, warm feelings that you have made someone's life a little brighter and vice versa. I call this, an echo into the past while surging the future with a vengeance! Dont ever forget me sweety....

Yours faithfully, Matty.