Time to Get Poetic
Its Been a Year Now
A Whole Damn Year
Its Kinda Odd...and Very Awkward
And Its Funny that no one Understands me when i say that i still Love You and more than likely Always Will
Its become so much more Obvious Lately
God Knows That i've had a fair share of 'Eyecandy' and such since then
Had a few boyfriends, had a few Flings but nothing stuck
Heck not even you stuck really..cept in my mind and heart..and life
I Know i didn't stick in yours..i suppose thats where we differ
They say its 'Commitment' Problems
I Say that its 'Already Commited' Problems
You just never left my thoughts....Ever
Hell i still remember the Very last time i saw you...The best sight i'd seen in forever
Its sad and pathetic of me really, because i sure as hell know i could and have found people that are 'so much better' than you...well at elast thats what everyone else says...and i'm sure you would too cause you never thought you were good enough
Either that or you really were a bastard who stole my heart and was to selfish to give it back
I can Honestly say you were the best thing to ever happen to me
and i KNOW i'll never love anyone more or even close to how much i loved you
Which is also kinda sad and pathetic because i know i'll never have you again
Some good chances have come up lately..good guys, safe guys, guys who i don't think would ever hurt me or ever do what you did
They don't do the things you do,
they don't look like you,
they don't smell like you,
they don't smile like you...
they arn't you
I can sense where the problem is
I Can Only hope one day you give me it back..because if you won't use it right i want someone who will
Maybe i'm the selfish one but i sure as hell don't see with anyone but you
I looked into my future for the first time recently
and there you were
The Drugs and all
Fuck-Ing Pathetic
I have decided never to Look into My Future again
Because I can't Handle False Hopes
I Never Felt This Way Before
Until I Met You....