for the most part my experiences on livejournal and myspace have been amazing. there hasn't been an event that has occured to make me stop writing in this thing, or bragging about my performances or posting clever photographs.

once i got fired for exposing too much on here. i worked for a small business with big fears.

on the other hand i have met amazing artists from all over the world. some even in person...kara and ben and anida etc... i have also heard from others how my journal has inspired them.

lj has made me more passive aggresive, mostly because it is a public forum and i don't want to get into a altercation with anyone. i am quite good at avoiding people, places and things, it doesn't mean that they don't exist it just means that i have decided to ignore these issues, and to see a physical presence can bring up the old resentments and fears. some habits you never kick, but i have learned from being repeatedly hurt to finally stay away.

with that said, i have good news to share. i got accepted to perform at the new york butoh festival this year in november. i will be doing three nights at CAVE gallery in williamsburg. i just got the letter today, it took over a year to find out. so hugo and corey get your butoh hats on and let's explore the "darkerer" side of ourselve and butoh. i will be doing the piece i did in chicago at link's hall, the one about addiction.