I don't know where or how to begin, but I know I need to just write.
It seems to be about that time that I'm just not happy with anything. I just can't get no satisfaction, you know it? haha.. There are spurts of awesome that happen every now and again, but I just know I'm not where I should be in life. Or maybe I am, and I should be learning from the situation, but I'm pretty much hating it right now..... But I suppose that's how the best lessons are learned. They're never easy, eh? But, then again, I don't know what I'm supposed to be looking out for. I'm not sure which chapters to take notes on.
There are a few things I have figured out just recently.. Say what you mean, and mean what you say. My dad always said it, and it always made sense, but I never really lived by it. Just last weekend I bailed on my best friend (for somewhat of a good reason but still uncalled for). And I feel nothing but regret now. Stupid.
And for the past little while, Kyle keeps saying things... promising the world more or less, and I've yet to see any type of change in him either. "I'm gonna get a job. I'm gonna help pay bills. I'm gonna start saving money. I'm gonna, I'm gonna..." Yeahhh, not. I just don't see that happening in the near future.
Over that.
I'm over a lot of things at this time.. But I do have some things to be thankful for. There is always something to be thankful for.
The person who will love me and do anything for me they can until they're no longer here.
The person who I like to call best frannn, that lets me bitch, piss, whine, moan.... and still calls me.
The person who makes me feel somewhat important and awesome, even if they don't know it. (I'm almost certain they have no idea.)
The person who calls less than every blue moon, and we see each other even less than that, and we can still be best friends. So much love.
And tons more..
But, I should probably get off this thing.
Love<3