I sit hear trying to write, yes I wrote hear as I'm listening to my thoughts and to the song. But I so wanted some flowing piece to appear but to no avail I just can't get seem to get in the poetic mood. But maybe I just need to get this out? To those who read, to those who know me yes this is coded a bit, possibly even a bittersweet irony or another Ahrenism/analogy…Currently I have a list of fifty five words that I'm staring at on this screen, but only one or two have been stuck in my mind for the past several weeks/months try as I might I just couldn't get them into anything special I've even tried the rhyming dictionary but nothing. Maybe it's a sign that I'm too complicated? Speaking of signs it's kind of ironic the many nuances I've come across in trying to find the write meanings of what I wanted to say. Is there some greater force at work here or is it just plain coincidence? I like to think of it as something of the nature of Karma, Chi, and The Golden Rule. For some of you that really know me and read my blogs I could go off on a tangent here with that whole subject matter, but I will say this that it is my belief that somewhere along the way "man" put a skew on it.

Harbor has been floating in my mind for a few weeks now it is defined as:
har·bor
N
1. part of a body of water near a coast in which ships can anchor safely (often used in placenames)
2. any place that is safe and sheltered
V
1. vt to continue to think privately about an emotion or thought for a long time
2. vt to provide somebody with shelter or sanctuary
3. vti to take shelter in a harbor, or shelter a ship in a harbor
But sometimes confused with port, defined as:
N
1. a place by the sea, or by a river or other waterway, where ships and boats can dock, load, and unload
2. a town or city built around a port
3. the waterfront area of a port
4. a sheltered place along a coast, where boats are protected from storms and rough seas
5. See port of entry

I'm not going to delve into the many similarities of these two terms but you'll get the general picture eventually. Among some other words/synonyms I've discovered in trying to get the write words were anchorage, bay, berth, cove, dock, haven, inlet, fjord, jetty, moor, pier, quay, sound, wharf. It's a bit paradoxical that a few of those words have different meanings other than how they relate to the previous to words yet even their different meanings are still relatable. I began this epic prose with the thought of searching for a safe harbor with the feeling of being lost at sea, yet I wasn't lost nor was I drifting. Yet still nonetheless I have had the feelings of the Siren's song luring me to shore, or a blast from a foghorn waking me up from an uncharted aspiration or even a mirage perhaps.

But a common thread to this water, it is an essential part of life, yet can also take life away. For the most part it is fluid, adaptable in a sense yet has many more ironic meanings in this context. I don't feel I've fallen overboard, nor do I want to abandon ship or even that I'm stranded on a deserted island hence I stumbled upon the S.O.S. "Message in a Bottle" song this earlier today. Upon trying to find a correlation with this song and what I am feeling it quite wasn't what I had hoped for as far as the songs history goes. However it wasn't released until 1979, which was a few years later than I had hoped for, but a marked moment in history. Then I see John Mayer recorded it in Birmingham Live 2002/2003. Somehow I seem to know somebody in Birmingham as I type and well 2003 really wasn't my year as well as the year the police got inducted into the Rock n Roll Hall of Fame. Very few will get these previous lines…It has been quiet some time since I wrote a note, well anything worth any true meaning other than a mini fume, poof up in smoke it went.

How in the hell am I going to finish this to make any logical sense? As I'm sure not feeling like I'm hanging out with the Captain Stubing, Doc Bricker, Gopher, Julie McCoy and Isaac Washington speaking of whom Captain n coke sounds good right about now?
Ahhh maybe I look to the stars for some Celestial Navigation to find my true North. Well maybe the cliff notes version of this could be summed up to this sentence of being up the shit creek of life without a paddle? FYI I never did use the real word to what I was writing about…and this is two off the GTD!