What makes me so weak? Is it the fact that I still haven't accepted my responsibilities. But I'm still here aren't I? Is it that I'm too young to really know or understand why things are the way they are. I try to understand I try to do every thing humanly possible to make everyone around me happy and I feel as if I've spread myself too thin. There is only so much I can do yet I'm still expected to do things that I'm not emotionally or psychologically ready for. Yes I suffer from mental issues but they are no worse than you or the woman next door however there are differences with life situations which makes our ability to handle things better or worse. I wont be a burden forever, I wont .. I've cried more than I've ever cried before, I've asked more questions than ever. Yet I still haven't found answers threw these misty eyes. When will that light at the end of the road come? It's something I still don't know the answers to. I never agreed to this I never wanted this and my warnings only feel on def ears. When all is said and done it's noones fault but my own for not taking more controll when I was well and able to. So what's left for me now? Where do I go next? I keep searching inside myself to find my answers but I still havent found any... All I know is that things will never get any better here. my plea for forgiveness will never be heard, my attempts to push myself harder will never be recognized. I'm drained...