Isn't it crazy how when you say, yeah I am so proud of myself...things start to turn around that instant, and then you are not doing as well anymore...hence this week I have gotten barely any cleaning done...my fears have crept up, leaving me paralyzed in the wake of my many addictions and losses.

So, my cleaning adventure continues...I have come to a new point...I am finally admitting I need help, so come on over on the 30th.  I will humbly take whatever help I can get, and the idea of others coming over will further motivate me to move my arse in motion again.

If anyone is free in the evenings between now and then, again I would graciously take your help for a little one-on-one organizing, before the rush comes and I have people (i.e. ROB :) ) coming over wanting to throw away all of my stuff. 

It is hard for me to ask for help and I feel that I am asking a lot of someone in this particular situation, since going through my things with me leaves me very vulnerable...turning me grumpy, emotional and a little hard to deal with...( I have a lot of shame, guilt and embarrassment over my head in this part of my life)  On the other hand, when I am motivated...miracles happen, you could see me have a breakthrough right before your eyes.  You could make a difference in my life... :)  *cheesy smile*  Just thought I would get the truth out there....Any takers? 

My biggest fear is that I will no longer have any friends, because you might see a part of me that you never want to be around again...so please be easy on me...I ask for your forgiveness ahead of time and THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart now, that you would even be willing to go to the depths with me....

Love you ALL,

Gina