and i couldn't stop it when it was happening because i couldn't recognize it and a while back i could have spotted it a mile away but it's been spiritual warfare all the way and i'm sorry that i missed it and i'm sorry that was getting mad at all the wrong people because of the wieght that i had been carrying on my shoulders and it seemed to get bigger and heavier everytime i got madder at someone else until that beautiful light shined through and He spoke to me in the gentlest most commanding voice i had ever heard to pick my head up and continue forward ever forward and it was like the weight had been removed and i was ready to fight. but i was ready to fight the right enemy and at the right level and the agitation just leaked right out and turned to something else something more powerful and i'm ready to face my enemy and i'm ready to hunt him down and kill him and i'm ready to roar...