TOO MUCH TIME IN THE DAY
NOT ENOUGH TIME ON THIS PLANET, IN THIS LIFE
SITTING HERE WASTING AWAY
WHILE IM SUPPOSED TO BE SO VERY BUSY
HATING THE THINGS I LOVE
DESTROYING THE BODY..
THAT I DON'T WANT TO BREAK
BEING STUBBORN WHEN ALL I WANT IS TO GIVE IN
ACTING TOUGH WHEN I WANT TO SUBMIT
DESTROYING WHEN I WANT TO CREATE
TALKING OUT LOUD THOUGH IM COMPLETELY ALONE
LAUGHING OUTLOUD..WHEN IM CRYING INSIDE
DYING INSIDE..
BLEEDING MY BELIEFS AND SOUL...
LOSING MY SPIRITUALITY.
INTO THE ETHER, INTO THE VOID IT GOES
WHILTST I DESPERATELY GRASP AT IDEALS AND MASKS THAT SHOULD BE....
..ME...
TRYING MY DAMNEST NOT TO LET (THIS) LIFE KILL ME
TRYING MY HARDEST NOT TO LET THEIR DEATHS DESTROY ME
TRYING MY BEST, MY WORST NOT TO LET YOU SEE ME
THE REAL ME, THE EXTREMIST
THAT IS SUPREMELY..
A WALKING "MISS DIRECTION"
A BREATHING MISCONCEPTION,
A TALKING CONTRADICTION
OF THE UGLIEST BEAUTY
AND PUTREFICATTION