i came
and i'm coming..
and i came
i went
to the place
that fucking place
the cathedral..
for the show
THEIR SHOW
they put on for you...
they don't know
they will never know
the hurt, the pain
the desperation...
of you'r death
of you'r demise.
we're talking
we are talking
of the future, of our house, our son....
silence
mistaken as sleep
holding your hand
you'r beautiful hand
so warm
you are so warm..and loving
you are still warm
ALARM!!!!
DESPERATION!!!
i leap over you,
i roll over you like superman
1 move!!!!!!
in 1 adrenal move i am over you
i am on my phone
911
911
911
HE'S NOT BREATHING!!!!
HE'S NOT BREATHING!!!
OH GOD IN HEAVEN
IN HELL
AND SHIT
AND FUCK
HE'S NOT BREATHING!!!!!
no heart beat
no life
CPR
I PERFORM CPR..TO NO AVAIL
NO BREAK, NO AVAIL
EYES OPEN
MOUTH AJAR,
EYES AJAR
MOUTH OPEN
BLUE EYES BLACK
BLUE EYES BLACK
what the fuck
what the hell
COME BACK
DON'T LEAVE!!!!
OUR SON.....
ME....
relief
they're here..
theyll bring him back
theyll shock him back
iv'e seen movies
i've seen shows
IV'E SEEN MIRACLES
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
not real,not real, not real
NOOOOOOOO
i am walking
i am fucking walking to you'r funeral
walking!!!!
wtf!
oh my beauty
my fighting beauty
MY LOVE!!!
just sit up baby
just stop pretending....
STOP PRETENDING
to be dead,
to be lifeless...
i can almost see you breathing
I WANT TO SEE YOU BREATHING..again
just sit up!!!
just sit up and smile at me..
OH FUCK IT'S REAL
IT'S REALLY REAL
no man beside me
no father to my son...
and now( his) mother..
just a worthless shell..
OH BABY
OH HEARTBRAKE
OH FUCKING LOVE...
OH GOD
WHY?
WHY......???