THE ROPE WAS HANGIN'

 THE CHAIR WAS IN PLACE

 BUT I STAYED ON THE GROUND.!

I HAD MY GUN

 I HAD MY AMMO

BUT NEVER PULLED THE TRIGGER!

I HAD THE SHARPEST BLADES AT MY FINGERTIPS..

BUT NEVER PICKED THEM UP

I HAD THE PILL BOTTLE IN MY HANDS

I NEVER UNSCREWED THE TOP

HAD THE POISON AT MY LIPS...

AND I ONLY DRANK A LITTLE!!!!!

JUST TO NUMB

WHATEVER IS LEFT OF "ME"

WHAT, THAT IS LEFT IN ME...

AFTER YOUR QUICKENED DEPARTURE

AFTER YOUR EARLY DEMISE

1 YEAR TO THE DAY..(THAT)YOU STARTED SEEING WITH LIDLESS EYES!

I WOULD OF FOLLOWED YOU THROUGH HELL,

AS I CHERISHED YOU IN LIFE,

BUT YOU WERE TORE DOWN BEFORE ME

LEAVING ME WITH BROKEN HEARTED MISERY.

I KNOW THE LAST THING YOUD WANT ON THIS NIGHT

IS FOR OF ME TO HAVE TAKEN MY LIFE....

 I TRY TO PICK UP THE PIECES...

BUT THE DECONSTRUCTION OF MY SELF ABSORBTION

CREATES HAVOK WITH MY WILL FOR POSITIVE CONSTRUCTION

SO, I FEED THE MONSTER OF SELF DESTRUCTION

AND PROBABLY WILL TILLTHE END OF THIS "PRODUCTION"

OF

L-I-F-E

P-A-I-N

P-L-E-A-S-U-R-E

D-E-A-T-H........

(I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.....

ALL WHO KNEW YOU...STILL KNOW YOU

AND WISH YOU WERE HERE....OUR SHERIFF STILL KISSES YOUR PIC EVERY SINGLE NIGHT(AND YOUR URN) AND TELLS YOU HE LOVES YOU DADDY, AND ITS ROTTING ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT THAT ITS NOT YOUR FACE HES KISSING...AND HIS WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE HE'S MISSING...A FATHER THAT HE BAREALLY KNEW....)

I MISS YOU MY ANGEL

YOUR SCENT IS LONG GONE..AND ID GIVE MY ETERNAL SOUL TO HAVE US 3 TOGETHER,,,EVEN FOR MINUTES.

FUCK

I WOULD GIVE MY ETERNAL SOUL