Just putting this out into the universe:

Happy 40th birthday to my best friend, my big brother, my mentor, my cousin... You would've been 40 today, Bobby Dee, and it just blows my mind.  I know you've been gone for years, but it feels like yesterday to me.  I often think about what it would be like if you came back to spend a day.  If only that were possible.  I would wish it was today.  I would wish I could be spinning all night for your 40th birthday, the way I did at your 21st.  It was so long ago, it seems sureal.  But to this day, that party was still the best I ever DJ'd.  The crowd was unbelievable that night, we had them in a frenzy, and everything just seemed so perfect. Why did it have to end? It's still so upetting. I accept it, but I will never understand it completely.  

I go through my day to day now, and sometimes I get caught up in alot of nonsensical baloney.  But then you pop into my head, and it puts things back into perspective. I remember how tough it could really be in life, and that my worries are trivial.  Even though you arent physicaly here with me, you are still helping me grow...

I want to say thank you for that, and I want to wish you the happiest 40th Birthday! I'll be spinning at the spot tonight. I promise I'll play a set you wouldve loved.  Happy Birthday Rob!