First and foremost I must make it clear that I am happy for my roommate and the man that she has become giggly about.  He seems like a nice guy and she's happier then I have seen her in a long time.

Now for my realization...it's hard to watch.  A relationship as its just beginning is kind of like watching a particularly violent hockey game played by people who don't know the rules.  A wrong word said or an awkward glance and one or the both of them will spend hours dissecting everything done up until that point.  It really is quite cute, if you don't live with it.  The new feelings and the constant smiling and even the occasional paranoid episode are indicative of  those first few dates with a decent member of the opposite sex.  I admire her for doing what she's doing.  She is taking a chance and letting someone in.  Granted not far yet but it is a little early.

I think that's it though.  This kind of intense emotion is difficult to live with.  Particularly because, at this moment, I am not interested in feeling these feelings as well.   That's the hard part.  How do I take off my super spidey senses and not have to go through these feelings with her.  If only my tin foil hat would work!