This one's called "Loving Me"...wrote it recently, about how in the last relationship I was in, I loved him more than I loved myself. So it was no surprise then that he didn't love me. And boy did he show it! But if he had faked loving me, I'd probably still be with him, and still be in the state of mind I was in. And not loving myself like I have to in order to ever find and keep a healthy romantic relationship. Basically, because my ex is a son of a bitch, I got the chance to examine myself and discover where I needed to go personally to be the best me I can. In the process of doing that now. This song is thanking him for that. This one will definitely feature a verse from Knowledge...as soon as his punk ass writes it. slacker.

Hook:

So many times I tried to warn you/

Tell you that you were losing me/

But you lied/ you pushed/

And I died inside for you/

Felt no love was left in me…/

So I thank you for not trying/

The me I was I wouldn't have seen/

Sleepless nights and endless crying/

Because it took the old me dying/

Now I'm content with loving me/

Verse 1:

Thank you for not loving me/ (foreground)

I wouldn't have had the time to grow/ (background)

Thank you for judging me/ (foreground)

This sense of self I would not know/ (background)

Thank you for the "not so kind" words/ (foreground)

Because now I know what to say/ (background)

Thank you for losing me/ (foreground)

Thank you for pushing me away (baby)/ (foreground)

First half of hook:

So many times I tried to warn you/

Tell you that you were losing me/

But you lied/ you pushed/

And I died inside for you/

Felt no love was left in me…/

Verse 2:

I've found someone who loves me/there's no doubt

I've found a love that I can't/do without

Loves me for all of me/and

My inconsistencies/I

May introduce you to her…

She loved you once before/but things have changed

She loves me now there's nothing/you can say

I'm happy loving her/she

Loves every part of me/she

Loves Unconditionally

I'm finally in love with me

Second half of hook:

So I thank you for not trying/

The me I was I wouldn't have seen/

Sleepless nights and endless crying/

Because it took the old me dying/

Now I'm content with loving me/

*Knowledge Verse*(2:44-3:24)

(Repeat til end):

Thank you for not loving me…

This is the first song I wrote and didnt have the immediate urge to burn. It's called "Dear Jill"...It's a letter to Jill Scott and Ella Fitzgerald about how If I could meet them, I would pick their brains about how they do what they do, and somehow how I could be as ill as they are. my bestest says he beats off to it...he's crazy. Most proud of this clearly because It was my first, but it wont be recorded for a while because I have to compose it. It's not on some hip hop shit, just some strings, a piano, light percussion, and ME!! Can't wait to get it down though, I love singing it.

Verse:

I've got these candles lit/

But nothing comes to mind/

softly your music plays/

but I can't seem to find/

The way/to convey,/how to say

"This is me", "this is me"...

Turned out the lights just so/

I could think as I sat/

Twenty-one year "writer's block"/

Can you imagine that?

Hook 1:

If I could talk to you/

I'd surely ask how to/

Show all the world ME through/

This Pen & Pad

Take lots of notes from you/

If you could teach me to/

show all the world ME through/

This Pen and Pad...

Verse:

I'm drinking tea and such/

Study your songs with zeal/

To duplicate the way/

That your voice makes me feel

And take/ pain away,/sooth heartaches

Like you do for me…

If we could meet one day/

I'd ask you where it's from/

The magic in your voice/

you'd show me how its done/

Sing things/ I feel and see/and honestly/

Say "this is me"…

"This is me"

Hook 2:

If I could talk to you/

I'd surely ask how to/

Show all the world ME through/

This voice I have

Take lots of notes from you/

If you could teach me to/

show all the world ME through/

This voice I have...

**Yeah, so keep your ear to the streets (or my music page, whatever) for new stuff being recorded. There's more in the works and even more I haven't thought of yet. This year will be progressive I predict...