There IS a higher being, a higher form of consciousness, a God, a nature spirit, a grand computer that is in control of all reality.....and it fucking hates me and the feeling is mutual.

On top of other sleeping problems, I now am having trouble getting to sleep.  I have no energy, fall asleep during the day and while driving, and take 2 or 3 hour naps in the evening that leave me even more tired....and now I can't fall asleep at a decent time.  I want to hurt small furry animals and punch nuns at this time.  The worse part of the sleep apnea is not being able to control when I fall asleep.  The early afternoon sucks out loud.  I am very embarrassed at work, everyone knows about my problem and seems very supportive, but I hate feeling weak and out of control.

Tomorrow is the day.  I will get the results from my sleep study tomorrow.  I am going in for them to tell me that I have moderate to severe sleep apnea......which I already know!  I am going to pressure them in to scheduling the next study as soon as humanly possible, I really want to get this machine and start feeling better.....

Going to try to go lay down now.....wish me luck or death.