Wanted to write something because its been so long since I posted a Blog ..but I  sit here not sure what it is I want to say........................
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I guess its befcause my mood lately has been kinda indecisive.
I am the luckiest woman in the world. I have the most wonderful attentive husband. I love him so much I woould do anyting for him. he makes me so happy.  I can't even try to describe how I feel everytime he walks into a room and looks at me.
We have been blessed with 7 amazingly smart and beautiful children. They are are wonderful to me.. (Yes  sometimes they  make me want to shake them and say "what were you thinking?")  But over all they give me so much joy I thank God every day for each of them and the gifts he gave them that make them such cool people.
 
I now live in Arizona as of August of 2008...It has been a really big change for us.
I love the sunshine almost every day.
I love that we can walk to the park, drive to the city go up into the mountains and none more than an hour away and all equally beautiful.
I love that there are plam trees on my street and a cactus in my yard and I am not even on vacation.
I love all the insteresting places my husband takes me to listen to music of all kinds (except country lol) and to experience the different foods and drinks, I never knew that  food could be so pleasurable. And so different depending on cultures.
I love Arizona I really think I was always intended to live in Pheonix I just didn't know it. It is the perfect blend of a big city and a small town with nice warm weather.
 
But, still, I miss my small little town when I grew up. The town I couldnt wait to leave when I was younger. But didn't.  Instead I decided to raise my family there.  The town where my church , little league local gas staion,  grocery store, browine troops, and so many more ..not to exclude my friends and family ...all supported me through the most difficult time.   
Where just standing on  my porch to grab the mail someone I knew was sure to ride past and beep and wave to me.
I knew everyone there and everyone knew about me. They knew about my medical problems. And how amazing it was for me to be walking down the streeet with all my kiddies. They knew who my parents, brothers sisters were.  It was nice to always have some one to say "Hello hows everthing going?"   no matter where I went.
I know alot of those people didn't and still dont understand how I could leave all of that behind.
But alot of them came to understand. Especially after meeting my husband. 
In life we make so many hard decisions. I know I made to right one coming  here.  I miss my friends and family painfully. Still  I am happy beyond belief in my marriage and new home.   ITs kinda a wierd feeling to go back and forth between happy and sad so often.
So if your reading this .. Shell, Di, Janice, Mom or anyone that I would call a friend or family.. I hope yopu know How much you all mean to me and how much I miss you all.  If it were posible Id just bring you all here to beautiful Arizona with me.  However I hope you all find peace knowing how happy he  makes me.