Well guys, its been tough. lets just say that ok. And im sorry but i need to share somethign with you guys. I have lost all faith in the internet and society. So...im goign trhough a pretty tough time right now and (please dont show me any sort of sympathy or whatever i just need to get this off my chest) and ive been ..very depressed because of it. So i decided since i really cant talk to any serious adults anymore id go online and try and sort things out. have you ever tried typing in "help for teens" or "teen help" in to google? all that comes up is "parents how to control probelm teens" and "special schools for troubled teens" not only does this completley not help me in any way...its even more discouraging. I try and get help and all it tells me is that the top suggestions or helping teens is shipping them away and"straightening them out". do these parents ever...EVER...think for one second that it may be their fault their child is depressed? that by taking everythgn their child loved away from them is driving them closer and closer to insanity? All i was lookign for was a possibble place where i oculd get advice. real advice. somewhere i could figure things out. but no. All i get is how parents can "deal" with their children. how is that right? explain that to me. what is right about shipping your kid off somewhere else insteadf of being a real parent. a cargn loving supportive parent. What has happened to parentign today? is it all just one big lie? Have parents lost sight of what it really means to be  a parent? a parent should be someone who loves their children unconditionally, and would never call them nasty names and will always forgive them no matter what they do. I am not a child...i dont appreciate being treated like one...but apparantly it only takes one day to turn into an adult because until the day im 18 i will apparantly be a child. It makes no sense. What did i do wrong. What did i do to deserve this. no one else i knwo has to go through any of this . They just slide through highschool with theri perfect little relationships...they dont have to deal with any of this. and then theres me. I dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont do drugs, i dont have sex. Im a fuckign saint compared to everyone else. I try and do one thing and im called a slut and a whore by my own mother. I just...i dont understand. not in the least. Three quarters of my class has gotten drunk at least once. Half of them have TRIED to get drunk on more than one occasion. then theyll goout driving. The other half does drugs, or has smoked pot at least once. IVE NEVER EVEN SMOKED A CIGARETTE. I am tired of gettign punished. arent you supposed to get rewarded when youre good? why cant just one thing...ONE THING be easy... i just dont understand.