I dont understand why things cant be easy like they were. I just dont understand why everyone cant be friends... i thought that you of all people would maybe be happy for me but idk. I just dont understand how everythign in life has to be so difficult. Like love... falling in love should be the hard part, not every day after that. Im so tired of it being so difficult to be with the people i love. How i have to choose my words carefully so as not to set people off. Another hard thing is getting a job. I just need some money. Isnt this supposed to be the land of opportunity? i guess weve lost sight of that as americans. I just want a minimum wage job and i cant find one anywhere. That and i really seriously need a car. Ive accepted the fact that my car will be sold or ill never get it so i guess i have to start looking for a car so i can look fro jobs further away the only problem is that in order to get a gods forsaken car i need money. why is my life one giant catch twenty two? why cant things just be easy...