since i wrote in here but lets see..

paul and i are apperantly going back to war mode.. we were doing so well with being friends.. well i thought anyway .. but what do i know anymore.. but one thing i have learned threw all of this, is im not going to let him bring me down anymore..

ive spent to many tears and to many nights wondering what could have been and what would have happened if...

damn that 2 letter small word with a big ass meaning..

anyway .. he can fight and kick and scream all he wants, i refuse to drop to his leval to be vindictive or in the position to use black mail anymore.. im above that and im definatly above you.

it doesnt matter how far you push me and how much you try and break me.. im the stronger one and one day you will realize that. im not contesting the divorce, im contesting the grounds .. and i hope everyone realizes that.

i deserve to be with someone who loves me for me, and someone who i can give my love to who will appriciate it, and not use me, stab me in the back, and hit me, or cheat on me.  ill give you the divorce baby, definatly.  but how dare you call me a drug addicted depressed psycho, when your doing breakfast of champions, and like to use your hands instead of your heart and head. fuck you.


anyway.. im out i have better shit to do than waste my time explaining shit to anyone anymore