can i just say how happy i am right now..i mean .. i have a job i love and not to mention the amazing pay raise i have jumped over the last week .. haha screw you hannaford.. plus the increase in hours= more time to stay out of trouble, more money to buy the things i want.. ie. new living room set being delievered tommorrow..


on top of that im figuring out who my real friends are vs who are just there for the connection, the party or the drama, and to those people, well you will figure it out when the phone stops ringing.. hahaha..


so on to other news, im still looking to upgrade my car... im debating.. there is a 08 trailblazer that i fell in love with over at motors n moore, however they dont take trade ins, so i have to find some sucker like me to buy the mazda, but i cant take not having a radio much longer.. maybe ill put the car on craigs list and see what i can get for it, than use it as a down payment for something alot better..


this time is all about me, and upgrading my life, making me a better person, threw my belongins, my car, my job, my outlook on life, itself, and more important, upgrading my personality back to the positive person i was before this whole mess..



one day .. thats all im saying.. one day he will realize what we had, and wont be able to deny that we loved each other. one day he will ask for help, one day he will realize what unconditional love really means, and when he does .. ill be there waiting... but till than, im going to do me and make sure my shit is all in order...