EVIL IN ME....

Okay so im gonna do an in depth on my Evil in me song... what it means as I get alot of flack for this one....

Verse 1
Evil red man with the pitch fork
he bought my soul today
and giving up who I am is the price I gotta pain
The flames are rising I feel the heat
vampire awaken its time to eat im free with the evil in me

"I had traveled to Scotland as many of you know, and I had such a wonderful time, and I loved the country a lot,  I had something happen over there that sorta through off my plans, and it had me angry in my retern....
in that anger I wrote this song.....
Im saying the Devil has gotta hold of my emotions and the price I gotta pay is not being the normal me instead, I was pissed off, which is hard for actually, 
I say vampire awaken as, this is not my normal side, its time to eat..... meaning to vent... to scream it out.. sing it out... im free with the feelings... doesnt mean im a evil person, just a metaphor ... wow a metaphor in song who ever heard of that..."

Verse 2
Yellow pistols going down I sweat no more today
the happy faces all around I touch and feel the prey,
lust is turning lips so red,
no more time for me undead im free with the evil in me...

"also upon coming back from my trip I was faced with crazy people talk, and judgements from family that where just so far out there and off base it had me again just fummed and angry....people who had no idea the situation where painting a pretty dirty picture.  I felt like nobody knew me at all...
yellow pistols refers to a good friend of mine "molly"
and her effect on me....
I needed escape... to find myself in my pain, my direction on my own, as I sure knew I wasnt gonna get it from the people I needed it from the most.. my family...
again free to be different, and know its okay."

Bridge
aint no time for misunderstanding
aint no time for regret
if you dont believe me its just as well cause you can go straight to hell

you can run away with the evil red man find your truth if you think that you can
you never loved me didnt understand...
now im free with the evil in me


"  again I was mad... at many people... people in scotland... people here at home...I was tired of being judged unfairly....
I let it out... you can go to hell... now I dont really want people to go to hell, for all those out there being to directly specific with my lyrics... I was venting...
you never loved me refers to those who I have cared so much about and have really really let me down.   What they have done in my life I will never let be taught to my kids or anyone I am around.   For future reference"


My evil side is in there as most of us have.. I was just showing it a bit... its not the normal me as anyone who sees and really knows me would totally understand.

While on the subject of this song there are people I do need to thank for being supportive of the whole thing and really being there for me
Brian
Nichole
Von
Brandie
Kasey
Lillian
Josh
Robert
Joe
Carol
you all really encouraged and taught me so much, some of you just for being there to talk to and share with... others for pushing me, and making me feel normal again, and not so alone...

To the journey ahead... you will all be with me every step....
shavon