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Allen R.


Last Updated: 12/12/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 39
Sign: Gemini

City: Tampa
State: Florida
Country: US
Signup Date: 3/14/2008
January 31, 2009 - Saturday 

Current mood:  contemplative
Category: Life

and so is my life! 

I know it's been a while, so I thought I'd check in and let you know some of what has been going on. I think the last time I blogged, I was going through some life "changes". Well guess what, it's still changing. So anyway, Its' been almost 3 weeks since I've left my comfort zone and boy what a change it's been. I never thought that moving out of one's space can be such a handful of emotional "trauma", but I knew that it would not be easy leaving the comfort of one's personal space. Literally, I've moved away from all that I knew was MINE and mine alone. How does one prepare for such a change and how can it be that such a change would bring upon such an emotional experience that I at times, cannot even begin to fully understand?

I have been working towards gaining some level of understanding about the feelings that I am experiencing right now and how do I go on to fix the parts that just seem to cause me anger and frustration? I have decided that where I am at this point in my life, there will be challenges for me to see how my strength and belief in myself can help me to understand the many idiosyncrasies of making choices. I also figured that since this new environment is not forever, the "right now" is what is causing me to think more about the fact that sometimes we face certain challenges in life that we can never truly be prepared for. I for one, can see now that during our lifetime, we will experience some major changes that can bring about some emotional upheaval and frustration along with other adjectives to describe the types of feelings that can't always be put into words.

I've decided that I have to learn a different way of coping with what is happening to me at this time. I don't always have the answers, despite the fact that I am a mental health professional who makes a living teaching others how to deal with challenges in their own lives. It doesn't mean that I am flawed in that respect, it's just a bit more difficult to see my own short-comings and ways that I SHOULD be dealing with the issues that I am currently facing. It's almost like those in the medical & health profession telling people how to keep themselves healthy by not smoking and to exercise when they are standing outside of the break area chain-smoking like there will be no more cigarettes left to purchase. The irony there is that we sometimes are quick to give others advice yet, have difficulty accepting it for ourselves.

Not that it is a bad thing, it's that sometimes we fail to adhere to the commonalities that we all share. At some point, we come around to understanding the fact that it may take us time to realize the reality of our situations and that we aren't necessarily ready to make the change. Eventually, most of us are able to make those changes as difficult as they may be, but it's usually for the best that we take the advice that we give others. In my situation, there is nothing wrong with getting help and utilizing professionals who give us the unbiased opinions to allow me to see things from a differing perspective. In the grand scheme of things, everyday is a challenge, it's that there are those who glide through and others need a little help from time to time. Either way, the reality is what it is...and no one can change that without some outside force to give us a push.

With that said, I am working towards some means of getting my life back in order and learning to deal with the changes that are going on with me at this time. I will try and make it a point to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. HMMM..now that will be the key..to know what the difference actually is and how I will know. I guess my wisdom will have to be addressed at some point...Pray for me!



3:56 AM
 
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