 |
Current mood:  breezy Category: Life
Huh. I haven't actually written in here and I figure I should be updating everyone on my life.
Well first off I'm no longer with Joe, which is probably a surprise to some and for others it's entirely not. We grew apart with time which if you ask me could've been resolved by a little effort; alas it was never given and I just don't have all the time in the world to resolve everything myself. He's just not that into you is a saying I'm going to have to take to heart. When someone refuses to make even the slightest effort outside of lip service, that should tell you something. There were other things too. He never wanted me to meet his friends, didn't really talk about me. I think I was his guilty pleasure. He always struck me as ashamed of going out with a fat chick and frankly I can do better. I'm a damn sexy bitch, not in SPITE of my rotundness but in addition to it.
I've really started to love my curves, and I like how I look. Yeah I'm not a skinny bitch, but for god's sake has that ever stopped me from getting what I wanted before? I'm a big bitch and I deserve a man that'll love every fold, every curve, every pound without reservation. Joe couldn't give me that. I was never beautiful to him, but to someone else I am, regardless of size, color, or bitchiness.
I've found someone great, aside from distance but right now the distance isnt a bad thing. I need the time I think, to reassess myself and my life. I've started doing things for myself again instead of for someone else, particularly a guy who didnt think enough of me to call me, write me, wish me a merry christmas, or come see me.
For one I've got a new roommate and I love having him around. He helps remind me there's life outside the net and gives me the companionship I crave with no sexual undertones. It's very nice to be honest. I'm enjoying the brother/sister bond with someone who's not going to be trying to get in my pants any time soon.
I'm embracing my furriness as well and reassessing friends. If they offer me nothing in the way of love, or compassion, I don't have time for them anymore. From now on I'm not giving what I don't get back. Life's too short to invest in a sinking ship of a person who refuses to even try to reinflate their lifeboat. (That metaphore ran amok a bit but I know what I mean)
That's really it for now to be honest. Maddy's being maddy...she couldn't be anyone else. She's speaking better and being a general dork around the house.
Oh and I have a new dog, named Roro that I rescued from the streets. He's adorable if not a big clumsy oaf.
Muah all. I'll try to be around more. ^_^
 | Currently reading:
Black House
By Stephen King
Release date: 2003-09-30 |
|
7:07 PM
Powered by  | | English | | Albanian | | Arabic | | Bulgarian | | Catalan | | Chinese | | Croatian | | Czech | | Danish | | Dutch | | Estonian | | Filipino | | Finnish | | French | | Galician | | German | | Greek | | Hebrew | | Hindi | | Hungarian | | Indonesian | | Italian | | Japanese | | Korean | | Latvian | | Lithuanian | | Maltese | | Norwegian | | Polish | | Portuguese | | Romanian | | Russian | | Serbian | | Slovak | | Slovenian | | Spanish | | Swedish | | Thai | | Turkish | | Ukrainian | | Vietnamese |
|