Well, over these past few days I have had some time to realize a few things. Most notably the following.

Sometimes doing the right thing is not always the right thing to do.

I don't know where that came from, but it just popped in to my head over the weekend. And its so true. Reflecting over some events of the past few weeks, I have come to realize I have nobody to blame but myself for my current situation. Why?

Well, I don't regret getting myself involved in the situation because of the things I have gained from it... I have gained a great friend! But here is what I do regret.

I regret doing the right thing when nothing was wrong and needed doing.

That one choice put me in this situation. If there was nothing wrong in the first place, and no risk of anything going wrong, why did I do what I did? Is it because I desire to be a man of God, a man who honors others above himself? Is it because I felt that it was the right choice? Is it because I felt that something could be worked out due to the uniqueness of the situation? It does not really matter at this point. What matters is that I did it. I brought the grief and the pain in to the situation by trying to do the right thing. I made a stupid mistake by doing what I thought was the right thing to do. And it has brought me a great deal of heartache and trial. I even asked my own friends to pray for me and the other party involved in the situation. Not that it was wrong to do so, its just that my intentions were not totally pure. While they are now that I have realized this and cleaned my attitude up about it, for a while there I was really struggling.

So the point here... I am the one to blame for all that has happened. I am so sorry to the other person involved... I care deeply for this person, and its terrible that I am the responsible party for this whole mess. As far as doing stupid things, this has to have been one of the stupidest things I have done in a long time. It has really hurt both of us, and made us struggle unnecessarily. It just took God a long time to break me down to the point that I realized that its all my fault. I did it. I'm the criminal turned victim. And that has caused me the most pain that I have experienced in a long time. I hope and pray that I can receive forgiveness from not only the other person, but from my friends who I asked to pray for me when I had the wrong heart. Maybe their prayers are what led me to realize this, I don't know what they asked God to do in my life. So in a way, I still owe them a thank you. Thanks for praying for me. It has been helpful.

Remember this. Sometimes, when nothing is wrong, and the risk of things going wrong is absolutely positively at zero, then there is no need to create a problem. And that's what I did here. I created a problem by doing what I thought was right. But judging by the outcome, it was not the right thing to do.

Sometimes, doing the right thing is not always the right thing to do.

Don't forget that.