More To Life

Do you wake up screaming at night?
Is your sleep never deep enough,
To fight the demons in your mind?

I walk these streets at night, but I'm not getting anywhere.
So many thoughts in my mind, I'm so scared.
Will this pain ever subside?
Will I ever make it through the night?
These blistered feet can't take me far enough away from here.

Do you wake up screaming at night?
Is your sleep never deep enough,
To hide the worries in your life?
I need to know there's more to life,
Than struggle and sacrafice.

They sat that money isn't all that you need.
Just to placate the man whose family can't afford to eat.
Where is this dream I always hear about?
Is it illusive, a delusion?
Sleep tight, tonight...
You might just find strength to survive.


Like Drowning

To hell with 9 to 5. Most nights its 9 to 9,
With something on the side, just to survive.
Take one last deep breath. Go under, Stay under.
Gather all your thoughts. Don't Panic!

I don't want to go.
Somethings always wrong
When you carry the weight of the world
On your shoulders.

It crosses my mind every now and then.
Why does each day feel like drowning?
Throw me a line I'm struggling.
Is it always like drowning?

Beat red and bleeding. Pulsing like an open wound.
But I won't let it in, I won't let it win.
But it gets so hard and I try so hard.


All My Memories

I find myself on the floor again
Holding this pen in an unsteady hand
Writing the words that have gone unsaid
but they sound so much better in my head

I cannot be without you
You are all my memories

I find myself alone again
And I remember everything
Your scent, your touch, the way you taste
The way the dim light falls on your face


Hold On

Listen to the sound of the snow fall to the ground.
How can it be so loud?
There are things I just don't know
Like when I die, will it hurt?
Sometimes I feel this life is feast or famine
and there is nothing in between
I cannot stand this anymore, so I'll sit.

They say its always darkest before the dawn.
Just hold on, hold on
I feel you slipping and I'm not ready to move on
but did I hold on too long.

There's so much stagnant air.
Can't you see that I can't breath
Sometimes I say things when I know your sleeping
Its easier for me to hide this side of me
but you need to know
You have my heart and soul
You are the light when I'm all alone.

Sifting through all that remains.
Salt these wounds with memories.
Staring out the window,
I don't want to be alone.


Victims

When sanity returns we'll feel it flowing through our bones
Our bones will break under the weight of the decisions that they make.
It breaks my heart to think we put our trust into these wings, hoping for flight.
Promises in light of countless crashes.

If I close my eyes tight, this will all go away.

We are all the victims but we are all to blame.

Now's the time, the wounds have healed, to cash in on tragedy.
Who taught you how to breathe my friend?
You're stealing all the oxygen.


Bid High and Bid Often

Gonna build me a bomb
Fill it with disease
Sell it on the internet

To the highest bidder
We even ship overseas
Truth be spoke this is happening

But that's okay, they're more worried
With me watching sex acts online.

I'm gonna sing about reality.
They're gonna ban it.
Where's my freedom of speech?

Gonna see a man today
About whats wrong with me
because I haven't felt like this and I'm scared.

He'll surely diagnose me
With a touch of disease
the one that made me a rich man.

But thats okay, he's more worried
about getting paid.

This pain almost feels physical
Crying becomes habitual
My eyes are wide with disbelief.


Nothing Seems Real

How could you just walk away with barely a goodbye?
Hindsight...It was such a waste of time.
Tomorrow, Today will be yesterday
but all my troubles are still on my mind.
And I wait for the rain to wash away this pain.

Why am I such a fool?
How could I not see?

Driving down this highway at night
All alone, with no lights
Feels like being blind
Everyone feels it sometimes
As frightening as it may seem
We have all been alone...Together alone
So lets wait for the rain to wash it all away.