Everyone is so fucking concerned with what others think and feel about them. Why? I have made many many mistakes recently which have led me to a conclusion. Do you realize that you might not wake up tomorrow? Do you realize you could leave this earth while you are reading this? I have given and given and given......and now I taketh away.

I am a nice person, I like to do things for others and make them happy. I enjoy this truly. My question is how long can one persist on this path when their kindness is mistaken for weakness all too often?....... Now I taketh away.

I say what is on my mind to who I want, when I want, wherever I want. Why? Because no one is promised tomorrow. This is me, I have no room in my life for wasted time and sentiment. I lost sight of this, I lost who I really am and for what? Delusions of "true love"? Who knows? The simple fact of the matter is either you're with me, or you can get the fuck out of my way........and now I taketh away.

Chris is dead. To all of you who are my real friends and family(you know who you are) this changes nothing. To all of you who have wronged me.....prepare......cower...........cry......do what you want. I could give a fuck. It's over........and now I taketh away.