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Matthew Mayo


Last Updated: 11/24/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Capricorn

City: Birmingham
State: Alabama
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/4/2005

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Joel (2)
Thursday, January 31, 2008 5:23 PM

Current mood:  contemplative
Category: Life

Im in class, surfing myspace, and a thought popped into my head.

How different would my life be had I never left Bennington?

This is not to say, now, that I regret leaving, which im not sure either way, because at the time, I knew where my heart was, and what I needed to try to do, even if I failed.

This also is not to say that I dont LOVE Montevallo, because I do. Montevallo is a wonderful place, and the loving and caring people I have met since moving here have in many ways changed my life.

But, I wonder, who would I be had I never left Bennington? Would the things that have befallen me, good and bad, befallen me there? Would I have learned the life lessons I have here, there? Would I be as happy with my life there as I am here? Would I be with the person I had a crush on there now, or would I still never had the courage to truly confront him? Would I have the same number and level of friendships? There are so many things I have learned here, in terms of life lessons, that im not sure that I would have learned living in Vermont and going to Bennington.

Those of you who knew me then, who know me now, or who knew me at both times, what do you all think?

 
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Mantra Sardis

 
All people ponder 'what if'. The problem with that occurs when we lose site of what we have Now through our experiences. Every step of the way helps us become the person that we are Now. If you were meant to live a different life than you have at the momemt, you wouldn't Be Here Now. There are no other possibilities, only the Now. Be Here Now. It's all that matters.
 
Posted by Mantra Sardis on Friday, February 01, 2008 - 8:52 AM
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Kyle

 
I think the world of What-If's is a tricky business. I think you would've been just as successful there as you were in Montevallo. Now, one could sit and ponder endlessly about all of the alternative universes, or they sit and admire the one they live in. Knowing you, there would be similarities between this life and the one you're contemplating about. I believe that things happen for a reason. Granted that we don't necessarily know it at the time. But, to get back to my point, you are where you're meant to be. All the people in your life have a role to play, something to teach you. So have faith that you're doing and learning what you're meant to.
 
Posted by Kyle on Friday, February 01, 2008 - 8:53 AM
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Joel

 
I think Kyles dead on right.
 
Posted by Joel on Saturday, February 02, 2008 - 4:45 AM
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Ruben
Ruben Hester

 
I dont know you but that has never stop me from talking to ...or wrighting anyway life for me as a kid was really bad it seemed that if it cood go wrong it did.....sorry I am not going to go in to everything about then but as I was getting older or back  then I would always ask myself why me or what did I do so wrong to have had such a bad up bringing and what if......boy I would what if   all day long but at the end of the day I was still in the place I was ment to be I may have had to grow up faster then most but what I realized was that if I was going to pull myself out of the place I  was it took growing up fast, so as I got older and life got much better I realized to not look at the past and ask why or what if because at the end of the day, you are were you are because you are ment to be......so as for me I dont ask myself what if this was differnt because if you are truely happy with yourself there is no reason to look back; be happy for now.....
 
Posted by Ruben on Wednesday, September 02, 2009 - 2:48 AM
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