so i find myself not hanging out with any of my so called friends anymore...the friends that when i went out we would just sit in a car or in a house an smoke weed an get ripped an basically that was it. the only time i talk to them is if i happen to see them once or twice a week. one of them has since gone through treatment n quit drinking an weed so me an him have something in common again as for the others i dont associate with them anymore

quiting the things that i was involved in was hard at first but i re evaluated my life from around october of last year till early august. i said to my self look what you have become. a liar a clepto an a major pot head.those were the three main things i didnt like about myself..lying ot my mother sayin i was going somwere to only go a few blocks down the road an smoke with my friends. stealing from peoples garages an whatever miscellanious things i could find on the road,i almost was going to breakinto a house with some non pothead friends an decided fuck that.the pot thing was the major, weed was a big part of my life from around last october till early august.early on from around october til the end of the winter it was all innocent an i would smoke mainly to have a wild time snowboarding an it felt like nothing could stop you.when snowboardig ended you lost that sense of innocence becuase the only place to smoke was your car an you were suseptibale to getting busted..an thats exactly what happened in early may.i was up near two harbors with two kids we were supposed to go to a show yet we took the wrong way an rather then going to grand rapids we went towards grand marais.around 10pm i was asleep in the back of the car passed out on dramamine wich i take for motion sickness an right when my buddy told me the cops i woke up tohave a light in my face there was only a mere amount of time were i could of taken the baggie out of my shorts an eat it along with rippin the filter off the cigarette an eating the whole paper along wiht the big amount of shoved nugs. so we had to get out of the car an we were searched an he came up with the baggie an we sat in his car alll three of us each of us getting breathelizers an the works. i had a cigarette filled with bud in the ashtray in the back(cadillac)an he woudlnt of found it till he overheard us on his recorder in the car that we were talking about the joint.well he got it after he told me to go get it an he sent us on our way with no tickets they would be coming in the mail. a few weeks later i got a ticket that stated i would have two misdemeanors becuase when he weighed it out he weighed it with the baggie an the ciggarette an filter so it bumped the grams to 1.4grams.a misdemeanor an a misdemeanor in a car he also nabbed me by sayi that since i was a minor an had a cigarette(empty) it is considered paraphenelia. so after this for three weeks i didnt smoke becuase i was scared out of my wits.then after that i became my old self an started smoking again.i had court on june 18th yet the court told me to go back to duluth becuase it wasnt juvenile court..i havent heard about it since..so the summer started an i started partying runnig form the cops stop working out an runnnning becuase i had a knee problem so it increased my smoking. i even did some graffiti on a place were i shouldnt an a cop saw me an i took off ..the very first an only time i will ever spin out in the ditch with my 84 chevy truck.over time there were more parties wich led to more smoking an my mom would tell me not to hang out with these kids..forward to august 11 i told my mom i would probaly go to steve thoreson's yet i decided to pick up two of my buddies an another. we were going through an alley at high speed an right before we crossed the intersection i slammed the brakes becuase of an oncoming silver pontiac within a split second we were i the middle of the road an my mind was thinkin WE MADE IT. right when that happened we got struck in the back side of the drivers side did a few spins took out a telephone pole an landed in the ditch with two wheels..i looked in the back an two kids were mangled in the rear of my truck becuase they didnt wear seatbelts they had huge scratches up there backs an heads. i got out of the passengers side becuase my side was two mangled. the cops showed up after my buddies left in a ambulance i thought they were screwed..they did the usual breathelizer and asked if anything was in my car wich there wasnt exept for two blunt raps wich werent mine. this crash has cost my insurance over $16,000..boy did i pay it big for a measely summer fun day.i few days ago i got a letter in the mail with my returned check for 132 dollars to pay for failure to yield sayin i have court on november sixth for Life or Property Endangerment. im thinking hopefully i get some leaway becuase just today the proctor power sent me a bill for $2,987 dollars for the cost an labor for the pole i took out.

I have since quit smoking weed wich is very good to me an the life of living. i broke my kneecap in this crash so i wore a full leg immobilizer for sixth weeks an it really showed just how much i could of bein seriously injured in this crash.i am doing physical therapy two times a week an in time hopefully i will be able to start swimming for excersise becuase i cannnot run an i dont know about snowboarding yet but i do know i will be pursuing boxing for fitness at twin ports gym in duluth. me boxing will be mainly to get me in the best shape of my life so far an possibly if i am really focused an love the sport i will pursue boxing as a sport not just excersise...the best thing is i only had to really quit one major thing that was disrupting my life. i do not drink an never have becuase i have personal experience with family an alcohol.

august was around two an a half months ago but in those two months my grades have bein the best in my highschool career. i have all B's and one A right now through the whole quarter..that is unpresedented. im going to keep with the new path of life i have chosen becuase it has shown the better in just a few mere months

this was just a venting blog to tell what has happened with me an what i am now becoming

thank you,

Langston

EDIT

looking to front a  hardcore or metalcore band prefferably two vox...if not deathstar thirty ahah

EDIT..

so i went to court on november 6th an i was supposed to be charged with life or property endangerment and failure to yield..the judge dropped life or property endangerment an he only charged me sixty dollars rather then the 132 for the failure to yield...i only have ot pay my mom back 260 rather then close to 600 ...(lawyer fee was only 200 because of small amount of work)

i started swimming at the Y now an my physical therapy is almost over an i should be able to snowboard this year

things are looking out brotha's

OO YEA still clean of thc  an of course drinking..fuck drinking you all know i dont drink

p.s.....my beard is getting burly

LANGSTON

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so i am joining the navy

in the final stages just waiting to go to MEPS..i already passed my asvabs

thats all she wrote