I looked back at alot of the first blogs I wrote.  Its strange to see how things go in full circle.  Whats worse is to see that I don't change?  That there are always the same parts that stay.  Its funny to see how things have changed, how I've felt, what was good at the time.  What was bad.  I forget where the years go.  I forget where the people I refer too... go.  They fade.  and so I stand now on a new tower, by myself.  At square one like it always happens.  I wonder what will happen? I however know that I have found what made me strong in the past.  Myself.  My own confidence.
People lie.  People go.  People make promises they can't keep.  All on the whim of an emotion.  Because they need someone there at that moment.  I'm tired of that struggle.  People have come and go all my life, its nothing I can control.  Feelings that I thought were just and important and real can be shattered and shown the truth.  All I want now, is to understand where I'm going.