Friends would be nice - ones that live right around the corner... maybe a girl friend to call and chat about the crazy things that happen in this life... maybe a couple who adam and i could get along with both parties well - and actually connect with them. Someone who i could call and make plans with, even if its just to hang out and do nothing together. it was hard moving up here pregnant and not having the ability to go out then - and definitely not having it now with a little baby... i didn't get to meet anyone - except for adam's friends which have turned out to be exactly that - adam's friends. My neighbors are cool - but mostly male, and they all have their lives to attend to. Hanging out with an 80 year old man isn't always my idea of having a good time. How can i connect to people? I usually just meet people when i am out doing things in the world but now - i am at home with myself. I love my baby boy and i love being a mother - more than anything that i have ever done in my life, and i love my husband, and being his wife. I just want something more - i feel like i need something more. I feel like i should be okay with not having friends, but seriously - i need people in my life, its a core part of who i am. I guess i need to work on dealing with my situation, and enjoying what God has put in front of me. I think so many times we are unappreciative of things that we have and just push for more out of life.

i do want friends though.