How iS it, that one simple  little   word or action can just ripe your insides out?  Or make you the happiest person in the world? 

 That is the question I keep asking  myself  over and over. Is there ever a right time for anything anymore? How do you ever get back something that has been lost? Or did you even lose it? How do you really know for sure

When do the sleepless nights and bad dreams go away? When does someone stop being everyone elses whipping post?  What is it  really like to be a good daughter, wife ,mother friend?  You think that you are, or at least hope that you are. But you never hear it from the people that you want it to come from. So how do you really know?

Why does saying I love you just become a habit for some and not others? Does it mean that they love less?   Or just  an  everyday routine?

And is showing someone you love  With a simple little jester the same as saying it?  Are there any right answers and if so where do you look for them?  Better yet what do you do if you find them?

How do you ask for something so simple because you miss it? But then you know if and when it starts it's only because you've said something.  Would it still mean the same if it came from them without asking?

So many questions and so few answers.  What makes a person love more, is there a gene in their body?  Or does your brain control it ?  Once again more unanswered questions.  How does one overcome pain, hurt , mistrust and grief.  These feelings are part  of everyday life.