Hi,

Here is a fun fact for you. It's one year ago yesterday since I
moved in the Big Brother house. I can hardly believe a year
has flown bye already:) It seems like yesterday I was still
living in the Big Brother house. I still can't believe I
was on the show!! What a blessing :) I have learned so much
about myself & life from living in that nutty house.

Alot of people ask me why I prayed outloud. I do alot of
praying not only outloud but to myself as well. It just
depends. Usually I pray outloud when I'm emotional. It's
like if I talk aloud to God, it makes it sink in more &
feel more real, intense. I can really feel the presence of
God when I'm praying aloud.

While living in the Big Brother house you feel like it's a
home or summercamp. Winter camp for my season of course:)
You don't care that you are surrounded with camera's
after awhile. You know the camera's are there but you
don't see any of the staff, camera men, or an audience.
You never really feel like your on tv. & you can just be
yourself.

But after a while at times you break & say or talk about
things you would normally never really talk about in your
every day life just for the pure satisfaction of some form
of entertainment.

The people who took me too serious just need to lighten
up & open their minds. Close-mindedness never succeeds.

Alot of the things I would say or do I was just joking
around & having a good laugh. Like Team Christ:) I mean
I love the Lord & so did my alliance so yeahhh why not
TC in the House. Or even calling Sharon the MOle!! HAHAHA
that was funny.LOL It turns out after seeing the show &
afterdark I was right:)

When I got out of the BB house & saw all the clips of me
talking to myself I was like OMG STOPPPPP NATTY STOP!!
HAHAHAHA it was so funny. I couldn't believe I was talking
to myself for minutes on end. It's no wonder some people
thought I was crazy. LMAO I guess BB is a human experiment
to see what happens when you take all the things humans
are use to away from them.

Do we need our cell phones, friends, family, computers,
radio , etc.. to be sane & normal?? Does having all
these keep us balanced so we don't all go insane & is
that why some people in real life do go crazy because
they have nothing, no one??

One thing I never under stood while everyone else in
the house could work & protect their partner I got all
kinds of crap for helping Matty. People really thought I
was in love with him. Which is so not the case at all.

I was partnerd with him from the beginning so I felt the
need to protect & help him as I thought he would do the
same for me.

Matty always said he hated nice, bubbly girls like me so
I knew that was his pet peeve & I could drive him crazy
just like he drove me crazy. That's why I would follow him
around & say Matty I want to sit next to you, I need my
hammock time, please can I have a hug goodnight, I'd even
kiss the back of his neck at night, knowing it drives him
MADDD:) I'm busting his balls as he would say & do to me.

Now with the whole massage thing...funny cause he was the
one that brought it up from the getco, he voluntered it!
LOL so that's why I was like Mattttttyyyyy can I have a
massage pleaaaseeee. All the time. LOL Besides what the
hell else are we suppose to do in there.

What's even funnier is my family knew I was teasing him &
trying to get under his skin meanwhile everyone else thought
I was desperate & in love with him. Don't get me wrong in
the beginning I liked him & thought he was cute but then he
was such an ass I stopped liking him & still pretended I did.

I knew from watching previous season's of BB that if I wanted
to win had to play dumb, lay low, look desperate, study the
house & have a great time:) So that was my plan. Right
before I left for BB I told my Dad and some close family
members that I knew I was gonna be a physical threat in this
game so I'm gonna play dumber than a box of rocks, be random,
say & do crazy things & just HAVE FUN!!! My Dad was so proud
of me when I got back. He said some people were like I don't
think nat is being smart or making the right moves I'm worried.
My dad would tell them don't worry nat's got it figured out,
it's part of her plan.

One things for sure giving Sheila HOH was not part of my plan!
LOL That didn't work out so well.

SO there is a little insight onto my way of thinking and doing
while living in the BB house.

THank you again so much for watching, supporting and sharing
with me the best and craziest experience of my life:)

Lots of love,

-Natty