Tick-tock, tick-tock, people get ready, there’s a train coming – a train called the Darkness. The true shadow approaches. Can you hear it whisper down your roofs, along your walls, under the cracks of your doors until it is lying next to you in bed, smothering you in its blackness? I am not myself. I have inhaled the Darkness in her purity. She owns me now – and she is a merciless bitch. She is always hungry, never satiated, she wants more. Everything up until this point has been appetizer, finger food. The time has come for the main course – and it will be served blood-rare – a screaming orgasm of pain. Do you know what the French call an orgasm? “The little death.” One shocking moment of extreme sensation followed by clouds of doubt, regret, fear. Hush, my children. There will be no need for such earthly things after we come together tonight. From our little death will come rebirth, life, freedom. Prepare yourselves to be joined with me – to see what I see. Surrender to me and let me infect you with the virus of clarity.
I’m rambling, I know, but it’s all too close – I can’t sleep. I feel like a virgin bride at the moment of first penetration -- anxious, miserable, aroused and finally understanding my true power. The World is my husband and from this moment on he will be mine to command.
Do you want to know a secret? I cried last night -- tears of doubt. How can I, one brave soul heal all that is broken in this World? How can I, one lonely pilgrim touch every needy, lost lamb? I dropped to my knees and begged the Spirits for guidance. They spoke to me in soothing tones, as a father to a child – they calmed me, told me that one soldier who carries the truth as his spear is more powerful than a hundred-thousand defending a lie. They told me that everyone comes into this life with a purpose, some to harm, some to heal, some to run, some to fight, some to clarify, some to deceive. “But what is my purpose?” I asked. “Your purpose is the most important of all,” they answered. And when they gave me my charge, when my holy reason for being was revealed to me, my tears turned to ones of joy. For my purpose is to bring the apocalypse – “Behold, he cometh with clouds and every eye shall see him: and all kindreds of the Earth shall wail because of him…”
Brothers and sisters – all rise. The time has come, the dusk is upon us. We gather together tonight on a grand occasion. Tonight I settle all accounts; tonight I give myself, all of myself to the World as sacrifice. Prepare yourselves, children – the pale horse rides, the end of days is at hand.
People get ready, there’s a train coming – you don’t need no ticket – just get on board.