It's an odd day.. one that makes me think and wonder... like looking at someones my space and seeing how.. things that were once there are no longer there.  At times it makes you wonder if while they delete things.. they are changing too.  You loose friends.. and at times feel sad about it.. but know that if they were that easy to loose they were not real friends anyway.  Feelings change.. and you find yourself sitting around asking what to do about it.  And in the end.. do nothing because it's easier that way.  I hate change.. don't do real well with it.... I miss the people I thought were friends....and given the way my life runs.. I find that there are very few people I would give my whole heart to anyway.  People drop into your life and they mess things up..or make things better.. and I often don't know which is which.  I think tonight.. I need a hug, a kiss.. put to bed and just showed that there is still a lot of love and happiness in the world.

hmmm think today I'm lonely and sad.. and really don't understand why..