Last night I had attempted to break the curses on me, which I visualized as thousands of "connections" simply snapping.  Upon waking up this morning after doing so I realized my depression has left me.  I am beginning to think the "curses" were mostly connections I had established to people with my subconscious which connected physically into my brain, messing up my perception.  I am somewhat bored, but the depression is gone.  I have noted many flecks of light which still sometimes travel to or from the moon, disappearing within seconds after leaving a short distance and sometimes a farther distance  from it's diameter.  Two nights ago (?) I had attempted to summon other people onto it's surface, after realizing the failure of the experiment, and noted flecks of light appeared when I attempted to do so.  It is possible they are aetheric, and possible they are flesh and bone.  I do not know and have no way of confirming this.  Tonight I attempted to start a spell to make vegetation grow, and I do not expect success, but with the recent light shows thought it might be worth extending some effort to.  I felt no successful confirmation.  I am mostly just glad that the energy that had been bothering me is gone and my depression has been lifted since then from what I can tell.  Although not expecting success I drew a simple one card answer and received "The Hierophant."  I'm not sure what to make of that, but most likely no form of summoning to create vegetation grew.