Well, I've done a complete 180 from the past few weeks.  I'm feeling beautiful and sexy.  I feel optimistic about where things are headed, and what I will be able to provide for my little girl.

We're spending the next few weeks completely remodeling my house for the baby's arrival.  Making things clean and safe and convenient.  My family is going nuts over things the baby might need, and it makes me so happy that they're involved.  Her father is even changing, growing as a person for himself and her.

As for me, I'm starting to realize that despite what anyone else thinks, I have a sexy baby belly. :)  I wake up every day tired, but energetic (if that makes sense).  I'm feeling more vibrant and healthy than I think I ever have.

The baby is helping me with my little bouts of depression.  When I get upset over the way I feel, or lonely, or even wishing the pregnancy was over already she kicks me as if to say "quit thinking that, you have me".  (Okay, so maybe it's my imagination saying that, but it is reassuring.)

I also have recently reconnected with someone I have been seeking for years.  And the crazy thing is we're still as close as before, if not closer.  I feel like it's been a week since I last saw him instead of years, that's how easy the conversation picked up.  We were at ease again after only two or three minutes.  It's very nice.

Oh, and I have started a kind of 'project', I guess.  I'm going to try to remember, every two weeks, to take a belly photo and stick it in the 'baby' album on here, that way I can keep track of how big I get.  (and I guess so that I can show off my sexy baby belly lol!)  Since I didn't start to show noticeably until about 18 weeks I started there.  Hopefully it will be somewhat entertaining.  At the very least, it will make me happy.

Well, good night all.  I'm going to nap for a few hours, then to Charlotte I go, lol.