The house is great.  Getting more and more settled in. 

Feeling really lazy lately.  Getting lots of sleep.  Eating a lot.  This bothered me a little, as I'm supposed to be some kind of martial artist or something.  Even someone practicing a style based on aligning oneself with natural forces needs to work hard.  It's very important to me not to be one of those people who "used to practice".  Or say that taiji isn't really for fighting.  It is.  And I'll get there.

I was feeling unable to train last week.  There was a big mental block.  Through journaling and emotional clearing I was able to locate the issue and clear it.  Apparently, getting picked on as a kid filled me with the need so smash.  And the long drawn out path to true internal power does not give you the same feeling of smashing that had previously been the balm for my wounds.  So I started feeling like I wanted to be somewhere now.  I wanted results.  Having acknowledged this, I can move on. 

I had a great lesson the other day.  Push hands makes a little more sense now.  I still feel right on the verge of understanding.  I've had that feeling for some time now.  It's better than feeling miles away. 

Bodywork goes ok.  Some new clients.  If anyone is reading, get me some more.  Tell them I am super magical.