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373 days-- that's how long it's been since Tommas died.

Tommas Koehler was a dear friend of mine and a very rare sort of person.  We sang together, played music together, sat in a wealth of silence together.

He had a voice so low it would rattle the floorboards as well as my spirit.  All of the songs that I have on my page right now were written when he was in my life. 

And 373 days later-- I still cannot believe it.  I still can't imagine how he could be dead.  I still can't bear it.  And I still sometimes have nights where I feel nothing but pain because of it.

I will never forget him and I will never get over this loss.

Fuck cancer.