Its been haunting me for some time.  3 Years ago I had found my Father's parents Citizenship Papers in with my mother's belongings.  I've been trying to find it just to scan it so it would be archived electronicaly and never lost.  Naturally tired from the shoot the night before, I decided to scan at least a few things... BINGO!  I found it in the first box I looked in.  Why would 2 Sicilians living in Newark be married in a East Harlem Church?  I was under the assumption that my grandparents were married in Sicily and then sailed to the USA.  Was my father conceived before marriage?  As it turns out, it was 1924, he was not born in Sicily, but born here in 1928.  Maybe I remember his story wrong, maybe he didn't remember and just made it eup.  But the facts are there, and I am curious to know if my grandparents could not get married in Sicily for a particular reason so they came to USA and were they were legally able to marry?  I don't know.  I have to ask some relatives, but what I did find was disturbing in with those documents were other legal documents, death certificates, etc.  I got caught up in all of this and thought I had missed the begining of a television favorite for sunday night: Cold Case.  I hate crime/drama, but the way Cold Case is put together is brilliant, brilliant enough to get me to watch.  A flashback, a date, a hit song from that date and a mystery.  Isn't that all of life?  What a way to tell a story.  Sometimes the twists of eyewitness testimonies are hard to believe, but nonetheless, its a concept I don't think I've ever seen in television (outside of Psych, but that is more comical).  IN any case, I got the feeling I was going back in time while going thru these documents and discovering/analyzing/understanding my family's past as a lot of it is a mystery. I understand better my father's disposition, family genes, and that things were no more rosey for anyone 50 or 100 years ago, then they are today.  Back then they kept secrets inside to destory them, and today we let it all out in the open to destroy our relationships due to known "issues" or baggage.  Yea, we evolved, or not.  Pain is pain, we just need to deal with it and realize that some had it much worse, some much better, but in the end... we need to ID it and move on as quickly as possible to be assured good mental health (thats not my opinion, it was a clipping of Ann Landers I found in with all of these disturbing documents).  Time for a drink.