Here we are again - still and always wondering where Sarah is and why she doesn't call Becca.  She has no beef with her so she should call her at home during the day while I'm at work.  Becca misses her terribly too, and so does Matt. 

Some of us have problems moving forward.  I know I have and still am looking backwards.  Maybe some day we all can move forwards, but for now it's difficult.  Seven years?  Yep  :((  Those are real tears I am crying.  Look at her profile picture.  This picture was on the camera she left behind - along with several other pictures.  She left everything behind.  All she took was the clothes on her back.  No backpack, no purse - nothing!  Did she plan on leaving?  Don't know - guess it doesn't matter any more.  The thing that matters now is if she's alright.  That is our main concern.  We all think she's alive and just doing a great job of avoiding us because we believe she's not that far from home - our home - not hers because she has a new home. That's okay now.  None of us would every expect her to make our home her home.  She has made a new place in her life for the past seven years.  I just hope that she's healthy and happy and that her choices have been good for her. 

We will always love her - no matter what.  We all just feel like she should have some consideration for those of us she left behind.  We have mourned for her, prayed for her, been afraid for her.  It would be a great kindness for her to let us know she's alright so she could be taken off the "missing" llist.  Then people would quit looking for her.  Maybe she likes the drama of people looking for her.

This was the first year I didn't put a birthday ad in the paper for her.  Wonder if she noticed that it wasn't there.  Wonder if she ever saw any of the ones that were there year after year.  I hope she did. 

I would like for her to see her poems.  The second one is so depressing that I never finished it.

Just more ramblings from a depressed mom.  :((