alright, so the escape hatch has been created,
even had her call me so that(hitting numbers to erase redial)her number would be the last one on the list directory phone thingie. Man i really want a smoke but i want to continue contact with the outside world.
If there's anyone out there who thinks that i'm overthinking life - because i think i might be doing that by never being in the present. It's a cool trick i have. i must make this easier to see Amy on the phone.
+++++++++++++ LOOK AT MY COOL TRICK +++++++++++++++
i am never in the present. For each little clue i pick up on, i am processing, recording, cross-refferencing it coming out with a list of possible solution to anything that might happen, trying to plan ahead, but do so in a way that that's all that i am doing. I am preplanning my death. Or i might as well be. always staying one step ahead of the game, and the competition, oh that is fierce. Does that make me an abuser?

Don't want to do anything with that so i thought i'd give us some space
callout, anyone want to come out and vent, this is a call out.
*****anon*****
i think we need to start making morning routines for everyone, get this system back up and running again.

she's home
here we go
she's cooking diner
she's upset
i must stay and get a movie
and return the other movies
and take jax for a walk -- no, let's make this reasonable.
Think this might be coming to
i'm afraid to type
ok, she's gone
she said
ok fine whatever i was cooking diner you know i don't care go, whatever
and what might have been a huff.
i'm gonnna go with the sign off the internet and go to the video store, bring phone to call to see if we've seen it already.
must call from store. Very important.
l8r