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Erik Richardson


Last Updated: 11/30/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 32
Sign: Pisces

City: San Francisco
State: California
Country: US

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Thursday, December 18, 2008 

I could tell you I miss you. But, you wouldn't believe me.
I can tell you I'm sorry. But, you won't hear me.
I can write for days endlessly trying to recapture the purity of you.
But, I know you have done what is best for you.
Subliminally we're identical, searching for something.
My world is wrought with personal strife. Self imposed, nonreciprocating, and selfish emotions.
When our world's collided I was unprepared for the depths of love you had for me.
What can I do?
Do you think of those nights, and hours we shared? I do, often. I think of waves crashing, Miles playing, and for some odd reason that shit in the tin can you made. I think of you in universal languages being spoken in tongues of non-verbal communication.

"Remember back in them days?"

Should I write it in a 4pg letter? Would a video better explain me than myself?
In a few days you will be gone, and gone you already are. Yet no matter what your location, my heart yearns for what it cannot have.

Do I want too much? I do. On the contrary, I want what is best for me. I no longer even know mE. Lost inside myself, you helped to see through me.

Respect is about a personal choice to see things in the correct way and to treat others as you wish to be treated. I wished to treat you better, and took to action. I allowed my inner demons/ weaknesses to control me. Instead of being the man, and saying "No!"

If I asked you to come by would you? If I told you I missed your "eyes" would you hear me? I know you feel me.

See, I posted for all the world to see. Those with and without vision can see sight beyond sight. I only hope you feel in your heart love beyond physicality.

Timing is an invisible, inevitable force no one can deny. You came at the right time.
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When I Look in Your Eyes
By Diana Krall
Release date: 1999-06-08
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confused conflicted contradictory controversial
nimma Sethi

 
did i come at the right time?
i wish i had come at a time when your heart and mind were clearer.
i wish i had come at a time when you were open for me, open to love me beyond the mere physical realm.
i wish i had come at a time, where i was not just a summer replacement.
You are asking for a second chance? i gave u a second chance after you cheated on me
so basically you're asking for a third chance, right?
Ask yourself what do you have to offer me? Ask yourself so i deserve a man like you?
A man who wants me only when his ex gf is taken, a man who wants me only when; after meeting these online women, they don't live up to their hype.
I would never treat the person i love and care about like that.
i would never even hit up my ex gf, tell her how awesome she is she continues to capture you.
Or hit up these online women and tell them "I can't take too much of this.The vibe is really strong and your pictures are killing me.I just want to see you in person..i think about u a lot"
You miss me, sure you do, cause i treated u like an angel, opened my life, heart and soul to you. I showed you genuine feelings and love. i treated you like a king, too bad you had only space and love for one queen; your ex.
what we had for a second was beautiful, then a lot and a lot of ugliness...
i think its best we say goodbye.
 
Posted by confused conflicted contradictory controversial on Wednesday, December 24, 2008 - 5:47 AM
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