This may sound so damn weird to people but I have been doing a count down for a year and it was up yesterday. You see it was a year ago yesterday that someone that I was with for nearly 6 years walked out of my life without even a glance back and left me with so much to deal with on my own and I thought how the hell am I supposed to deal with all of it but I did I made it through and I have no hard feelings towards the guy. He and I had our ups and downs but it was mainly downs when I guess I really look back on things. I wish things could have been different but it’s too late to change things and people can’t change other people. I am in some degree grateful to this guy for what he did since he made me go through a really rough year and I did mainly on my own the only regret is I lost touch with some important friends that I do want back in my life. I wasn’t on the computer as much as I used to be in the past year. I helped a friend out of a jam and instead she screwed things up even more by making me lose my old AOL account and all the E-mail addresses I had saved on it so I lost touch with those people besides losing so many clients so my business took a hit. Like I said it’s been a full year but I made it even though there were so many and I do mean so many damn times I wanted to give up. My life hasn’t ever been easy my friends know that and the things I have had to deal with in my almost 32 years that I don’t feel that young but oh thank god that I look younger then my age  or that would really suck and that I have a humour even though at times it can be sick but it keeps me going. Another thing I wanted to point out I shouldn’t have lost touch with so many friends and I hope they can forgive me and do people here on Myspace talk to everyone that is on there buddy list? If you don’t the try to talk to the ones you don’t talk to and see how they really are and you may learn something new from the experience and even may find you can make another deeper connection with someone. If anyone wants to know what kind of life I have lived please don’t be afraid and message me and I will share since I am not afraid and it may help anyone that may have had to go through what I went through or is going through what I did go through now. I am also trying to be online more and more to catch up with people since I miss everyone and this is to let everyone know I am alive and well. Thanks for reading and feel free to leave comments