it seems, i might be to charasmatic for my own good. i just dont understand. when did this happen?? wheer did it come from?? and why?? i was always the loner, the one left out for cold in highschool, and alot of my life. laphed at scoffed at, and  just made fun of. for my whole life i was riduculed, untill like a few months ago. now, its so drasticly difrent. wemon are swooning to me, guys are paying atention to me. i just dont fuking understand. what the hell changed?? there is alot going on in my head. why the fuck is this happning?? and where the fuck did it come from?? who the hell knows. i supose ill ride this out like every outher hurican, storm, fklash flood, twister, and earth quack i have had in my life.