We're not falling in love
We're just falling apart [so girl let's dance the night away]
This is how the beat goes
This is how the beat goes [Just let your body go]

This is how the beat drops
This is how the beat drops [I wanna see your panties drop girl now]
All this time is wasted pretending we're in love
But that's alright cause you know
I love being with you and seeing you cry

no...not really. ive had to learn a lesson today, for maybe the hundredth time. nothing is as it seems. people dont really change. they...age, i suppose, and change comes with age, but they dont change instantly. not all promises can be guaranteed, and not all life insurance can save you. not all diseases are fatal, but damn do they ever hurt.
change isnt made to be some party mask you wear around certain people. you have to be around someone constantly and talk to them constantly and know them inside and out before you can know who they really are. not all promises can be guaranteed...right?
i can promise how i feel...and i can prettymuch promise that it isnt changing, because it hasnt yet... but im sick of this.
im in so much more stress and problems and pain than i let myself show.
i act like all is well, i act like im cheery and peppy most of the time
but ...idk
its like im a tiny little bug thats only got an hour left to live.
i know its not true, but i feel like i have to do this NOW or ill never have another chance.
this is...horrible to be honest.
i dont like being stuck between a rock and a hard place
i dont like it not one bit.