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	Girl Friday	I have two sisters whom I love dearly, so I can only begin to imagine your loss.  One of my sisters struggles with diabetes and relies on injections to live.  The other is a single mom, like your sister.  Try as we might, life just doesn't fit neatly into a little box labeled "perfect," and the energy that so many expend judging could be better spent offering a helping hand and showing compassion.  I, too, feel like I'm a better person for just knowing my sisters and having their love.  Sometimes, it's in the darkest of hours that the most radiant grace will emerge.  We simply have to be open to seeing it and feeling its power....    Posted by Girl Friday on October 7, 2009 - Wednesday - 8:54 PM [Reply to this]

	LuvMyArtistsFriends	This saddened me too Ali. esp April's death was unexpected. I lost a niece unexpectedly too and I grieved for a long time. May God bless your sister's soul. I will pray for your sister and your family. Please take good care of yourself. Love and prayers, Lu   Posted by LuvMyArtistsFriends on October 8, 2009 - Thursday - 2:16 AM [Reply to this]

	nudella Mike NichtimmerBrav	woeful history   Posted by nudella on October 8, 2009 - Thursday - 8:43 PM [Reply to this]

	kathy kathy crossley	WOW! You really have learned a lot for such a young woman.  All so very true.. Something so tragic can really put things into perspective.  I can only imagine your pain as I have one sister of my own four daughters and a son. Family is most important...  I never judge.. You never know what you will find on your own doorstep. (But for the grace of God go I.) and yes, It is amazing how people will come together to help you heal in your time of grief. They are like angels sent from God.  Losing a loved one is probably the worst pain that anyone can feel.. I think you have found some light in your darkest hour. :) Thank You for sharing.. God bless you.. God bless your family.. God bless April..   Posted by kathy on October 8, 2009 - Thursday - 11:55 PM [Reply to this]

	lOsT n LyRiCs Xxlostxnlxyricsxx Residue	hey there, you don't know me but ironically we both posted a blog about losing someone special.  I feel your pain as I lost my brother 5 years ago on 10/25.  That was the worst kind of pain I have ever felt in my life and care never to feel again.  So I'm praying for you and your family. I'd hug ya if I could so here is a myspace hug *Big Hug!* I invite you to read my blog as well..I believe everything happens for a reason. Take care, chel   Posted by lOsT n LyRiCs on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 1:25 AM [Reply to this]

	Marie Hodson	Oh sweetie,,,. my son "jono" died 9 years ago at 17 from CF. He had a double lung transplant, but got horrible hospital infections and although he had some wonderful months after the transplant,, the infections took hold... The saddest day of my Life and Im sure for you and youre Family with April.. Life takes on ......  a new meaning when you lose someone so close and so young.. You see the world through different eyes, in my  case it was to leave a marriage that was abusive. My son gave me the strength to move on an experience a greater world out there.. April has given you same opportunity to witness great kindness. God Bless you and youre family... April may have not lived many years but she has left a stamp on this world that can never be erased.  xxx much love marie   Posted by Marie Hodson on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 2:03 AM [Reply to this]

	Louise Le May	I'm glad you talk about it.  I don't think enough people discuss death.  What amazes me is that when someone dies, it seem to release such an outpouring of love in people.  It's as if what they were as a physical person becomes something pure: pure love, coming through all their friends.  It's bitter-sweet.  Not all tragic.    Posted by Louise Le May on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 2:03 AM [Reply to this]

	MATI & FAITHY XOOXO!	SO SORRY U LOST YOUR SISTER. I LOST MY MOTHER TO LUEKMIA AT 6 MONTHS RAISED BY GRANDMA SHE PASSED AT 5 YRS I HAVE NEVER HEARD HER VOICE OR FELT HER TOUCH ON MOTHERS DAY WHEN WE HAD TO MAKE CARDS I HAD A HARD TIME WHO TO GIVE IT TO BUT GOD TOOK THEM I KNOW THAT I'LL SEE THEM AGAIN SOMEDAY. MY FATHER LEFT MY SISTER AND I RAISED BY HIS BROTHERS AND SISTERS I LUVED THEM DEARLY THEY BECAME PARENTS WHEN THEY DID NOT HAVE TO AT A YOUNG, TOMMORROW IS THE 1YR ANNVER OF ONE OF MY AUNTS SHE COMMITED SUCIDE LEFT A LEFT A LETTER BUT IT STILL GIVE NO CONFROMT WE COULD HELP. ITS HARD TO LOOSE A LUVED. YOUR SISTER WAS VERY PRETTY MY U FIND COMFORT IN GOD LET HIM CARRY U , I CAUSE I STILL MISS MY MOM GRANDMA AND MY AUNT. HOPEU FEEL BETTER   Posted by MATI & FAITHY XOOXO! on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 4:30 AM [Reply to this]

	*~Just Tracerz~* Tracerz FreeSpirit	As I wipe the tears away to send to you my heartfelt condolences, I feel I too have learned by what you've shared about your loss. I know April will always be with you to inspire things within you and also remind you of new things you've learned along the way. I wish you the best girl    Posted by *~Just Tracerz~* on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 4:30 AM [Reply to this]

	Teresa Hull, Songwriter	Oh Alexa, I'm so so sorry for your loss.  I just could not imagine loosing a sister.  It's so hard to understand why...  She is still with you where ever you go, in your heart.  She will live through her children. Just know she is in a better place and she is looking down at you with unconditional love.  Sending prayers and love to you and your family.... you will be together again. God Bless your family :) Teresa   Posted by Teresa Hull, Songwriter on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 4:30 AM [Reply to this]

	BN<3	Ali,   Your sister was a true blessing to you and your family. Its sad to say that God has a reason for everything he does even when that means losing a loved one... This is a very difficult time for me this week as well i went to my grannys grave for the first time in 6 years and it tore me apart everyday away from her is a day sometimes i dont would rather not deal with but i know that she wants me to continue to press on without her and make everyday better than before. Your sister is looking down on you and she is smiling at you everyday. she is proud of the woman that you are becoming... I thank you for this blog it was very insightful...and beautiful..it brought tears to my eyes... my thoughts and prayers are with you and your lovely family...i wish you the best...im here for you as always! nichole..   Posted by BN<3 on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 4:55 AM [Reply to this]

	#10 Buchholz Ben Buchholz	Perfectly put.  I'm extremely sorry to hear about your loss.  It's inspiring that you can open up about such a tragic situation, and spread a more positive outlook on life to anyone who reads this blog.  Every word you said here is true.  Sadly it often takes a terrible loss such as yours to bring this realization to people.  By doing what you're doing, you're bringing that realization to people without them going through such a loss.  Continue sharing and expressing this mentality, I think you'll realize how very helpful it will be in all aspects of life.  I'm sure your sister is looking down and beaming from ear to ear at how proud of you she is.  Again, sorry for your loss, and thanks for sharing such inspirational words. --Ben   Posted by #10 Buchholz on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 6:20 AM [Reply to this]

	Evie Evie McDowell	..I believe all who read this will get something out of it.  I too have learned that life is a gift.  My sister has CF and last June she received a double lung transplant, what a wonderful gift!!!  The gift of life!!!  I learned to cherish each and every moment with loved ones!!! I know my words can never take your pain away, but please know that I am praying for your family and know that your words touched me and I am sure many other people who have read this!!!  May your sister rest in peace!!!  ..   Posted by Evie on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 3:12 PM [Reply to this]

	Walk Softly On Our Mother	I was guided to your blog tonight by your sister. She wants you to hear her and Know that she is well again. She feels such Love and Peace that you should not worry. She is there for you and everyone who loves and remembers her. She wants to encourage you to be more open and loving and KIND, to yourself and to everyone else. You are not supposed to be perfect, there is no perfect in the way you think of it. I see so much more now, she says. Look here at what you have written,.. "God bless all my friends.  PEACE  LOVE  LIGHT". ..You will need to do better than that... Your still too limited if you bless only your friends... ? ....April didn't want you to remember her looks first - or think of her suffering. Forget all that she says, remember her for her smile and feel the love she has for you now. You are to remember more than her sense of humor. Look to the horizon and think of learning to use your smile to comfort the poor and down hearted. Your beauty needs to come from your deeds. Strength and power. Wisdom and tolerance is real beauty and will last a lifetime never to be lost with the wrinkles of age. Grace comes with age. .. Get on your knees to hug little kids. Look up into the eyes of those with pure hearts. We are all born with pure hearts. Remember that your needs are no more than equal to the needs of others. For the rest of your life you will see me smiling at you Through the eyes of those strangers you have brought joy to. I AM the stranger you smile at, and the one you teach and the one you comfort. I will always be with you when you call me to, in need. I will warn you of danger and all I ask is that you listen. I will sound like an instinct.   Posted by Walk Softly On Our Mother on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 3:12 PM [Reply to this]

	Danny Zimmerman & Honest Labor	..I don't want to act like I know you or what you are going through. I do feel the pain of losing someone close including my parents and three siblings. It is difficult to find true comfort. I have wonderful friends and some of my songs are about my difficulties in life. My thoughts are with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.  May the "God of all comfort" comfort you. 2 Cor. 1:3,4....Danny Zimmerman..   Posted by Danny Zimmerman & Honest Labor on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 5:32 PM [Reply to this]

	Memphis Dawn Dawn Eldridge	..I am better person too cause if it wouldn't have been for the homeless and the poor I would of not made it thru my son's funeral! I watch the people pass by his casket and I said I am so glad that he was loved in his final hour!....Love is looking from the heavens above!....A Mother!..   Posted by Memphis Dawn on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 6:16 PM [Reply to this]

	PAGE CLOSED	No words, just hugs. <3   Posted by PAGE CLOSED on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 6:37 PM [Reply to this]

	shirley Shirley Lockridge	hi sorry to here about your sister i have been through alot also. i will pray for you and your family. shirley.   Posted by shirley on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 6:38 PM [Reply to this]

	Luvasiagal	I lost my mother a few months ago unexpectedly too.  I always wish I could pick up the phone and call her, but I can't.  I feel your pain.  My mother was always in pain too.  Somehow I feel good that my mother is no longer in pain.  You are lucky to have many friends and family that support you.   Posted by Luvasiagal on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 6:38 PM [Reply to this]

	MEL	This tugged at my heart.   Posted by MEL on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 7:23 PM [Reply to this]

	davide	My dear Alexa, the disappearance of your sister, "April" has also affected my heart and saddens my soul. I agree with everything that is written in this letter. I understand why in 2004 I lost a dear person in my life, my father. I never told my father that I wanted very well. Now that there is no regret for not having embraced and I said many times that I wanted. I also learned to express my affection and my love for people who love you, clearly stating my feelings, hug and say what you feel. I realize that we tell people that we love our feelings, every day, now that we are alive and healthy, because tomorrow may be too late. because tomorrow we may regret not having said it. Dear Alex, I am your friend, I am close to you with my thoughts, my spirit, my heart now and forever! I am always ready to help, support and be near to overcome very difficult moments. I encourage you to always have so much strength and love for the remembrance of April, your grandchildren, family and all those who love you. Always have a care of you. I wish you many peaceful days, so many big hugs ... thou great friend Davide ......    Posted by davide on October 9, 2009 - Friday - 7:58 PM [Reply to this]

	Clare Clare Martin	I am so sorry about the loss of your sister! I lost a dear nephew to CF in 2008. I know they are breathing free on the other side and watching out for us. It is not easy and it won't get easier to miss them. Just rest assured that April is truly in a better place and may the warm memories you have comfort you and your family!   Posted by Clare on October 10, 2009 - Saturday - 4:25 PM [Reply to this]

	Ryan Severns	Ali, Thank you for sharing your heart concerning the loss of your sister April. My heart still aches for you & your family. The loss of someone so close truly is a life changing experience. You see the world in a new light, and as you said, you want to be a better person because you realize how special every moment in life is. I did not have the privilege to meet April, but it isn't hard to see her positive influence on your life shine through you, so I can feel how special she was. Also having experienced the loss of my mom who was incredibly special to me, I know how such a beautiful life can shine through another person through their actions to become a better person. You, my friend, are an amazing woman, and I know that someday you will be rewarded for all of the many lives you have blessed, many of whom you do not realize. May God continue to bless you, and may you continue to prize every moment in life as you change the world. Love ya. -Ryan   Posted by Ryan Severns on October 10, 2009 - Saturday - 6:42 PM [Reply to this]

	Greg & Lil Amber Greg Horsman	To repeat the quote my daughter, Amber, has on her MySpace page, ...."LIFE is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.".... May you and your family experience many more "monents" that take your breath away. God bless you, AlexaRae.   Posted by Greg & Lil Amber on October 11, 2009 - Sunday - 2:51 AM [Reply to this]

	Will Confessional	Dear Ali, condolences and sympathy... It's great that you and us, can learn a lot of things from this situation... be strong and be good.. that's all we can do.. we have a very limited time, what we can do is to live a good life, to live it full, to fight a good fight.. I always remember reading this and I quote: "enjoy the moment you have together, because nothing last forever" -Jowy Atreides   Posted by Will Confessional on October 11, 2009 - Sunday - 3:19 AM [Reply to this]

	AyssaLyana Toki -Doki-	This was nice. I'm sorry for the loss of your sisters, and i hope her kids r doing well :)   Posted by AyssaLyana on October 15, 2009 - Thursday - 8:36 PM [Reply to this]

	Miss Sapphire Jamelia.	Ali, im so sorry you lost your sister. You are such a beautiful person inside and out and i love you! This blog was both beautiful and a great lesson, it will most definately touch many people as it just touched me. Your sister is in a wonderful place now. God Bless you and your family. Love ya girl!! Sapph!   Posted by Miss Sapphire Jamelia. on October 15, 2009 - Thursday - 8:37 PM [Reply to this]

	jan	..Ali, I didn't know you before Aprils death, but I know the person you are now..And if we could all take your advice and be kinder to one another, what a wonderful world we would live in..I come up short everyday, but by God's Grace, we don't have to be perfect, but your an awesome young woman, and I'm glad your my friend...Hugs, Jan..   Posted by jan on October 26, 2009 - Monday - 2:18 PM [Reply to this]

	Michael Michael Corson	Thank you for posting this, Ali.   Posted by Michael on November 16, 2009 - Monday - 5:06 PM [Reply to this]

	krystle leigh Krystle Johns	I have 5 sisters i couldnt imagine life wit out any of them. i know we may fight n argue but we are still family. even though i dont get to see my sisters on a daily basis they are still family. i have sisters who are single mothers n i see them struggle everyday just raise their families. so i can understand. sometimes ppl judge when they dont mean too. its something that happens. i mean ppl judge more than others sometimes. its all about how one is raised.   Posted by krystle leigh on November 16, 2009 - Monday - 5:06 PM [Reply to this]

	Will Will Shaffer	Alexa,..I dont know you at all nor do I pretend to understand your tragedy. What I do know is that getting your life, good or bad, onto paper is amazingly cathartic. It sounds like your support system is awesome too so even this horrible thing  will pass. If you ever just need an ear, an unknowing, unjudging ear, you can find me on here. If not, hope your career goes awesome. Will..   Posted by Will on November 16, 2009 - Monday - 8:49 PM [Reply to this]

	miguel	GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.   Posted by miguel on November 17, 2009 - Tuesday - 4:43 AM [Reply to this]

	Premortalfingers	..Thank you Alexa. May you hold fast to the Iron Rod. In my prayers you are, with love, Adam..   Posted by Premortalfingers on November 17, 2009 - Tuesday - 4:43 AM [Reply to this]

	Michelle	..May God Bless your sister, and may she be sleeping with the Angels now. Im sorry for your loss I know how It feels. god Bless you and your family.. ..   Posted by Michelle on December 1, 2009 - Tuesday - 12:39 PM [Reply to this]