I've just emerged from a session of sitting, so if words are more clear or more foggy, there may be a cause. And a gentle fog (although it may actually be a drizzle...) is slightly obscuring the lamp over the walkway beside my building. The lamp's normal radiance takes on a softer yet no less direct quality in these conditions, although the reach of its light is nowhere near what it must be when the weather is clear. I see not only the lamp, but also its reflection in the window through which I look. The reflection only makes the lamp's light that much foggier. Hmm...

Balance and acceptance have been sort of the themes du jour for me over the last few days. Whatever corner I am turning, some part of me is resisting mightily... I can accept that that resistance is there, but sitting with it and allowing it to turn has so far eluded me...on a conscious level at least. If it's that so much has gotten so far out of balance, well, that's a no brainer... And I'm grateful that it's not some "perfect" balance that I'm seeking. Things are always going to be a bit wonky in one way or another, but I can find the counter move in the fall. Most of the time... Apply! Apply! Apply!

I end each sitting session by dedicating the merit of my practice to the enlightenment of all beings, and finding a few asanas to bring myself back into the world of motion. I end with sirsasana, always a good reminder to look at things differently..., and have begun...well, attempting to throw more of a balance issue in the mix by bringing my legs horizontal with the floor. (also adding not a small bit of core work...) So far, so good.

Whatever the outcome of my percieved lack of balance and resistance may be, it has given me this.

Acceptance Is a Doorway

When we accept--
--acknowledging the existence of something in our life whether we like and approve of it or not,
--acknowledging that it exists because we are creating it and holding its existence in place,
--acknowledging that we are protecting it--
then we are in a position to respond to it rather than reacting to it from our preconceived beliefs and assumptions about how life should be.

--Cheri Huber

May all beings know peace.