When you have a relationship with God as deep and beautiful as I've managed to attain, you don't feel like you need a whole lot more. I can't begin to describe the overwhelming joy and purpose He has brought to my life. I am nothing without my God. I could never hope for you to understand in any other way except being there. But I'll try to give you an idea. Feeling God as closely as I do right now, I would be okay if I never tasted a margarita, got married, had sex, or had kids. Because, although I look forward to those things, I know that they're not what life's all about. My life is not here, it's There. And no matter how close I get to Him, I'll keep changing and trying and clawing and digging to get even closer. Because I know the meaning of life. You can have the perfect spouse and kids and car and house. But if you don't have Jesus Christ in your heart and in your life you have nothing. Everyone has a God-sized hole they're trying to fill in their lives. But nothing can fill it as perfectly and wholly as Jesus Christ can. He is the ultimate.

12/29/2008