Ok, i know im going crazy with the blogs, but i have to get something off of my chest. this is an online journal, is it not? lol. First of all, i came to this epiphany at madrigal practice tonight, with the help of others, who didnt want to be there as much as i did. ok, here goes. I am sick of being a nerd loser person. i am stuck in the same ap classes with the same ppl every hour of every day, and most of them drive me nuts. learning is a good thing, it increases your knowledge and everything so u are not a hick, but it has gotten to the point of craziness. i am tired of being an overachiever. i have been one my whole high school career, and i just want to be normal. im not saying i want to drop all my aps, or burn bras or anything like that, but i just want to be normal. i hate coming to school most days because i have certain classes i have to go to. friends are the only reason i want to come to school. i am not desperate or crazy as of now, but i feel if i finish off my high school career like an overachiever perfecto person i will go crazy. i just want to enjoy the rest of high school. maybe i have senioritis extrememly bad, but im sick of it. I am still myself, and dont want to change that, but i just want to have the chance to lead a normal high school career, even if it is only for one semester yet. cant i be a normal person, not an overachiever? i already dont care about school, but everyone still thinks i do. i think i might make some scheduling changes so i can be in better classes that dont give me migranes and make me want to throw up. if anyone thinks that i hate the classes b/c of the teachers, it is most definately not that. i love almost all of them. i cant stand being with the same overachievers all day long. grr!! ok, deep breaths. i feel better now